Sometimes we have to go through hell just to understand were alive.
In that case I am doing great I do suppose .
I have seen friends vanish lost a website I created and ran for many a year lost readers and lost my mind on more than one occasion.
Sprinkle in a very bad accident on a motorcycle and you have the ingredients for a bang up year.
I find people are delusional when it comes to writing .
They think a contract means your life all the sudden changes for the better ,When in truth it is just the end of one struggle and the beginning of the next.
Problems never end but with any change there are just new problems .
My life is a ******* train wreck and I have played that full throttle lifestyle to my advantage for far to long .
But it was never a act there is nothing fake about me .
I live for I know every moment is uncertain and in that understanding I embrace every second.
Few people truly know me they either know what they have herd or simply make up the rest .
You cant waste time over the ignorant for as soon as you knock one down there are fifteen more standing in that fools exact same place.
**** them if they don't get you .
I have found more comfort in a night spent under the stars than in the company of those who would tell you there good intentions while placing a knife to your spine.
I'm a *******, a drunk ,A fool ,I am whatever you choose to label me
but I am always a hundred percent real .
Those who preach those who try to pretend they would point you in the right direction are full of pure crap .
I cant lead me so ******* if you think I could even begin to help you.
My road has taken me so far from everything I once thought I held dear.
Twisted my logic and weather beaten my soul.
Maybe I'm ****** up from life but no worse than the image that stares at you in the mirror you refuse to truly see so you place the labels on others .
Whatever make 's you feel less of a freak sweetheart is fine by me.
I found that it's always uphill when you don't settle for what's there.
I never did listen worth a **** and I dam sure wont buy into someone else's ******* I would rather be a fool to my own guidance.
Take this as you will.
Sincerely
Gonzo
