My Suppressed Anger

I hold it all in,
everything they've said,
I mold it all in,
inside of my head,

We all go through it,
me and you,
Yes you've all been,
in my shoes,

I don't want to listen to what others have to say,
I wake up thinking negatively every day,
I care about those that feel like me,
I think I can help but then I realise their not as ****** up as me,

I sit in my awkward posture,
here I am,
corner of the sofa,
once again
same place every time,
thinking of words with paper cuts and pens,
with a mouth jibbering like I just ate a lime,

I'm not good and I'm not fine,
and if I say I am then I am lying,
I'm not happy and I'm not free,
not as free as I'd like to be,

When I'm in a group of people I'm not shy,
but I'm not charismatic either or sly,
I don't always show my emotions but I don't always hide,
Although I suppress all of my anger inside,

I don't want you to deal with my feelings,
I don't want you to tell me how to get by,
I don't want you to tell me I'm a human being,
sometimes I want to die,

But you can't help me when I'm down,
the most you'll get from me is a smile or a frown,

Even though I'm not happy like you,
I can pretend,
a little false smile,
just for a while,
I'll think of the good times in that split second,
and reminisce in memories that have come to an end,

I can be anybody for a day,
but I'll just be me,
once you go away,

I'll just sit there like a lazy bear,
hibernating like a rabbit,
I don't give myself any care,
but staring at my spots became a habit,

I don't like to attention seek,
but I don't mind sharing in an artistic form the secrets I keep,

Well I'd like to speak to a person who cares,
But I've not found that person just yet,

So I'll just learn how to draw manga,
listen to depressing *** music
and write a poem about my suppressed anger.

14/01/15
~Peace~
By Larna Kira Kourtis AKA LkSkyFlyRose

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