As the internal battle intensifies
Externally I hold it together
Accepting and showing support
Disguised as an ally
But not too supportive
In efforts to avoid the suspicions
Internally
I’m fighting
Deep down hatred
I’m fighting
Scared of who I am
Fighting this powerful attraction
Repeating to myself
I’m just an ally nothing more
I am realizing
For others, I’m an ally
Yet In my internal battle
I’m my biggest enemy