Sorrow awakens
Rubs her crusty eyes
Wishing to drift
Back to sleep
But the sandman
is nowhere to be found.
Slowly Sorrow
sits up
Cracking bones and
dry lips
"How long has it been
Since I laid down to rest?"
She wondered.
One foot on the cold floor
and another follows suit
Desperate shivers flow
gives a jolt a blow
She steps to the sink
porcelain as her skin
Wrinkled hands turn the ****
rusted, so long forgotten
"Isn't their something that is suppose to happen?"
She thought, "do I recall right?"
Then the water slowing began to drip
and she remembered to turn on the light.
She cupped her hands together
to capture just enough drops to
wash the ash off her face
She had forgotten the cold feeling
That comes with waters grace
Splashing the icy liquid
upon her hard sullen face
To wash off the dust and dirt
now thick as a paste
It was The ash from the reapers breath
given home upon Sorrow's cheeks
Yet he had spared her...
Leaving only a memory
She looked in the mirror
As she washed it away
And she saw in her eyes
Lifetimes of pain
From defeat
and loss and grief
From love and
an unforgiven past
Holding her heart for ransom
Hanging from the tree of death
Ripe and ready
to fall at last
She had wished it was just a dream...
Am I remembering correct?
Something happens now?
Then without a beat or breath or blink of the eye
A tear escaped found its way out kissed her lips then fell to her breast
And more to come
She could attest
Their was no choice
There was no rest
No escape.
No power strong enough
to keep her poor heart
from overflowing
Then all at once
a scream came forth
from the depths of her being
Her ears beared witness to a place within her never before heard
a cave so dark And damp and deep
That death himself let it be...
There lived a pain that can only come from A life of truly living
And in that moment of release and touching that place inside
She lit a candle in her heart
And cried and cried and cried
Tortured soul screams out the dark parts of her heart
Her voice and tears give it life
It escapes her lips like a bird leaving its nest and flying
And a great peace came over her
And all at once she realized why
For sorrow did not come so much from the pain she kept hidden
But from all the energy and force and shame that came with suppressing
And she remembered why she had laid down to rest....
It was exaughsting.
So scared of the pain escaping she had slept and slept and slept
But it was not a dream and it would not be put to rest
Her whole life passing
wishing it to all be okay
Maybe if she kept it down it would all go away
But the pain only grew her sorrow cutting deeper
She didn't yet know her pain would be her savior
In the depths of her grief
All that was needed was grieving
Only through freeing the demons
Could come true healing
And once all had been given wings and space to fly
The darkness purged
And a light emerged
To reveal a pure love within her.
Written in Nepal , 2015