f**kface
his nickname since i left

i'm glad i left when i did
if i didn't who knows what he would have done
i can still his hands on my body
everything he did is still there

i was never allowed to cry,
be angry,
annoyed,
sometimes even happy

i couldn't show any emotion
i kept trying to leave
but every time i did
he'd threaten to off himself

now that i've left and moved on
it still messes with me

i always overthink and get scared
i always feel like he'll hate me for it
this relationship now is healthy.

unlike the last

i can now say i'm a survivor