Goodbye.
The hardest thing I have ever said…

Pain.
Suspicion.
Don't let it get to you,
Corroding.
Eating. Devouring.
With no remains.

Remember.
You are worth it.
He is worth it.

Don't
Give up.
Work. Walk. Wait.
He will stay with you the entire way.

What do you do…
You fall in love with your best friend.
He's in love?
But not with you.
Sitting there imagining his arms,
Protecting arms,
Around you.
Then.
You remember his heart belongs to another.
He's taken all the poetry…
today you feel empty.
Waking to fog and snow,
Wanting to die there.
You were alone.
Again you are alone.
And yet, you can never tell him
Your heart is bleeding.

Just drop me--
The thing he promised not to do all along?
Not meaning to lead me on:
Cuddling,
Kisses,
Telling me I was
Beautiful--
Me for once trusting someone,
Believing
Him.

And for what?
Being dropped again,
Just as I learned to love the feeling of falling. Thinking
He
Would catch me.

I knew it was a bad thing for me to fall in love,
Why did I doubt this
Intuition? For I am always right.
I cannot be loved back.
Why did I let him fool me?...
I am a fool.

Alone.

Empty.


sad

Lazy.
Only because I'm talking to you and eating,
Instead of doing homework.
I'd rather be talking to you
Than studying.

Last.
Not to be there, but to leave.
Even when I fall asleep you are still here,
I wish you could hold me now.

Lady.
That what you call me,
A princess.

Lack.
What I have when I am not with you.

Love.

Would it be better
If I left you?
I surely couldn't have
Hurt you so much
If I was gone to start.
I wish…
Wish with all my heart to
Take the pain away,
The pain I give to you,
And all other pain too.
If only I was better,
Then I could help.
But I can't… and
All I want is for you to be happy.

I can't stop thinking about you.
Can I be your treasure,
Your love,
Your perfection?
I'm never going to amount to enough,
But you make me feel like I do.
Finding safety in your arms--
A feeling I can't explain.
Trust completely,
Could this be love?

I want to see where this will go,
But not to go our separate ways.

Last night--
You just being there.
I never want you to leave.
Kind,
Strong,
Gentle,
Amazing.
I trust you,
Completely.
The only one I do.
Making me forget who I was,
You make me better than I am.
I can't give you my pain-- It would hurt you.

U
G
L
Y

Slides off my tongue,
The words I use to talk to you,
And the words I use to describe myself.

I'll slip away...

I'm hard to hold on to,
Too variable,
Too changeable.

Too likely to change into something so sweet,
That the bitter of me leaving
Will hurt more than help.

You can't fall in love with me,
I'm too much to lose.

...You are too much for me to lose.