poetry saves me everyday
it is a place for me
to retreat and rest from the world
when i feel too tired to exist
it is a place for me to regain strength
to continue to grow like a flower
poetry is like sunlight
warm, welcoming, and inviting
poetry gives me a sense of a new beginning
to find a way to myself
poetry gives me hope
in knowing that maybe
i am good enough for something

i must welcome this new beginning / embrace it with gentle hands / my life is not over / it is starting / i know i should open my heart to let the light in / when i open my heart / i bleed, i bleed, i bleed / blood is a discomforting sight to one's eyes /  i refuse to allow anything to come in to see it / it hurts to spill this heartache /  my life is changing right now / i can feel the world pulling my body in different directions / where i go? which way is right way? / change can be frightening, unpredictable / so is my mind / there's a war zone roaring in my mind / despair vs. happiness: which one will win? / the one i give into the most / this is what longing feels like / do i hide or do i run? / i'm scared, i'm scared, i'm scared  / nothing makes sense and neither does this poem / this body is a messy thing / grief spilt my soul in two and i don't know where the other half is / i will find it somehow / the sun continues to rise in the sky without apologizing / light pours in different directions / i will do my best to always tilt my head / this is where the healing begins / but my god it hurts to be a human / it hurts to be a living creature / i'm a wild one, i know this / & i will try to be a good one / i won't let you down / i promise

you take all the broken pieces and start again
build from the ground up
brick by brick, wall to wall
construction is never easy of course
you'll fall a few times
or you may bruise your bones a little bit
breathe in, and breathe out
rest for a moment when it's necessary
Rome wasn't built in a day
remember to replenish your body
when you're out of energy
you can not rush progress
if you're too focused  on the results
you'll miss every step wondering
why you're not moving
regardless of the pain, keep building yourself
beautiful cities are also built on ruins
i believe people are the same way too
there is renewal after destruction

i have been broke many times
pain still lingers in my chest
i know this now: it will not last
it's only temporary
my soul carved itself
into a bouquet of daggers
to protect myself from
the damage others left behind
to crush me
through all this ache
i remain myself
it will hurt me
it will not destroy me
i welcome it
it is a guest
it is not allowed to stay

i will carry the universe
in my hands
in my heart
with my breath

i will carry stars
in my smile
underneath my skin
in my blood

so that way
no one can define me
there is a galaxy inside
in this body

i am infinite

when i thought
my world was ending
every time my heart
would break
all the nights i collapsed into myself
i realized i can start over and rebuild
into something incredible
these wounds will
not be the end of me
this is the beginning
call me Phoenix
i will rise from ashes
and be born again