Sleep and wakefulness blur
Listeless longings begin to stir
Hearts twist into dire messes
right or wrong?  anyone's guesses
Sickening ache pulls my chest cavity in again
No breath, no relief from this sin and pain
Cant be me
Can't have you,
Can't be free
Can't be you
Kisses and soul hugs on the winds
Casting flesh aside he wins
Only the ****** live free of this shadow
To live this life till the next is hallow
Ill bide my time in this makeshift hell
For a love that only the best story tellers tell
The one that goes on forever
Some can part but no thing can sever
Ours is of the endless stars
Countless opportunites to prove our hearts.
A love never cold
Never old -

Forever young.

Gaping wound mouthing its pain at me directly
Red voiled words strain themselves from makeshift lips
A tongue of bone  sits across the torn out scream
Sputtering and gurgling as veins add to the heated furore
The surgeon peers and wipes over the crass outpouring
Silence, then muted sobbing
***** red mouth needs  washing flushed out
More unruly crimson defiance! Deftly Muffled once again
the gaping makeshift mouth  mutters a desperate prayer giving a resolute yawn and finally relaxes 
Scrubbed and trimmed, Stiched into a peacful crooked smile.
Docs got it all sewn up!

lost in the darkness of your missing
I watch the stars wink as if it's all ok
endless seconds drawl by
lethargic, spiritless
a complete antithesis to my eager waiting
the door  does not herald your lively eyes
that hand does not warmly reach for me
that warmth does not envelop me

the soul that sustains me
calls my eyes up to the heavens
a genltle reminder that you are waiting
I wait the endless seconds in unpassed time
thankful at least, there are enough stars

Like flesh missing from my bones, your absence screams at me
dry days fold into empty nights that even sleep refuses to visit
the warm of your breath starkly unavailable
life it seems left with you
the heart wants what the heart wants
it cut its self out
what use has it of these dry bones
and this longing disposition
seeking only your return
one dropless beat at a time
I wait for the get down
when your eyes breath life back into mine
and brings the flesh back to these bones

What is there to do?
it's so hard to be a passenger
watching us fade away
you're slipping through my fingers
lost to the tenements of duty and time
the choice is made
constant echos catch me off guard
I swear I hear you calling
but when I come
you're  not there
you send your ghost to taunt me
remnants of glistening hopes
swallowed by their smiles
They win again
They always have
I thought I had that one part of you
that tiny piece they never could
but it seems it's halved and quatered
there's not much left
if any at all
you've replaced us, me
and our impossible reality
with some other imposter
the lies you told were so real
I hold imaginary notes in my hand
and cast them to the wind
endless notes
I try to purge you
Every thought an easy betrayal
was it really ever for forever?
in the next life we said
that's too far away
so I write
endless notes
trying to forget you
endless possible futures
Torn away
carved out the deep ones with lies
how do you do it?
Look through me as if I wasn't there?
you'll be back
another note offered to the wind
Ive begun tearing out hopes
to get to the place before I met you,

back to numb

Plum
Cucumber
melons
Drip
Offered
Open
Lucious
With
Seed
Mouth
Waters
Flavor
melding
Lick
****
Slide
Swallow
Savour