Lonely I am very lonely. He deserted me because I am a manic depressive and he could not understand my pain and suffering. I am more or less like Ernest Hemingway and Edgar Allen Poe. They both suffered with the same mental illness and ended their own lives you know. I will never love again, nor trust another man. My heart has been been broken but keeps on ticking. I just want to be happy but I guess that is not to be. I will end up dying lonely and broken hearted because he left me alone.