the devil looks just like me
she resides inside my head
permeating all my thoughts
assembling words better left unsaid
she stares back at the mirror
and shrieks in pure disgust
whispers every single flaw she sees
reassuring that it's her i trust
her rambling is so piercing
that it shatters the glass with ease
and shards lay so unnerving
pulling me to my knees
so she hands me broken fragments
to glide across delicate skin
and with one last sickly smile
i finally rid the devil within

s.s

i hope her smile brings you a euphoria your drugs could never match
that her touch is like ecstasy and sets fire to your skin
i hope you crave her more than you crave death
that she brings on waves of love induced delirium
i hope she fills you with passion
that pours out of your eyes and into hers
most of all i hope she makes you happy
because that is the one thing i couldn't manage to do

s.s

somehow our country can't see the chaos we have created

we have become blind to brutality and ignorant to agony
hate drips from our tongues and we spit it into the ears of everyone around us
people are taking their lives and nobody cares for the right reasons
instead of raising our red and blue flags people are cutting and beating red and blue
         into delicate skin
all focus is on politics and economics
there is no more heart just hands
hands on bodies that don't belong to you
hands on technology manipulating as many minds as it can reach
hands on substances that block out the pain of people
hands on weapons to blast away problems we don't want to face
yet hands still over hearts pledging to a country we have slowly lost

it is a statement far from fabricated
that america can't see the chaos we have created

s.s

my hands are filled with heartache when i wrap my fingers around your palms
begging to feel the warmth of your touch but only finding a cold limp grasp

i hear sorrow in your heartbeat when i lay my head upon your chest as your heart pumps the sadness through your body
and i consistently hope you never make that heartbeat stop

i feel the catastrophe of existence when you clutch my shoulders
forcing me to stare into dark holes where your bright eyes once resided

i see a suffering in your being that even the devil would bow down to
finding satisfaction in the distress of your every breath

most of all i see myself in the reflection of your eyes
as tears create a mirror matching misery of my own
silently begging me to fix the pain deeply rooted in your soul

so sweetheart i will give my very life and the final light left in my eyes
just to illuminate every last dark corner of your soul

for as long as i am standing by your side i will give you my everything
just so you have a fighting chance to defeat the onset of darkness that i have already given into  

s.s

all my life
I’d been seeking
solace and peace,
I finally found it in

                                             you
You were my first.
One day, we were
talking, and I finally
asked you out. That
was the first chance
I had where I

                                             could
see what love
could do to me.
We’d hold hands
and kiss, and
I believed that
I could finally

                                             have
peace. The peace
my brain had
insisted I could
never had. Anxiety

                                             told
me that peace was
not possible. But,
when you came, it
was possible. Until
you decided to let

                                             me
go. After leaving me,
you chose death.