i’m sorry for it all
i don't know where to start but
it's time for me to go

please let me say goodbye.

the walls are up—
you can feel them. your
fingers
graze at their temperament.

ouch, you caught a nick.
so your blood begins to
tric
       kle

and you watch
as your feet begin to
turn that shade of red.
they leave

tracks
as you pace,
you scream,
THIS ISN’T WHAT I WANTED! but

what did you want, my dear?
i’m afraid
those walls
didn’t build

themselves.

where have you gone?
where did you go?
why aren’t you here?
and why don’t i know?

you dimmed the lights
closed your eyes
and so did i.

still felt the weight
and all the pain
when you left marks on my thighs.

i just laid there
weren’t you aware
that i didn’t want to die?

though out of sight
out of mind
you heard me cry.

do you know who i am
at 3am
when i lie quietly awake
and think of him?

please hold on
even when i dont
and tell me i will be ok
even when i wont

green yellow red
its time to go home
what do you miss?
shhh can you hear him?