Days go by, and I'm stuck in my thoughts..oblivious to the world and my surroundings. I am here in my head trying to go through my thoughts to better understand the person I am. Who is Shawn?? Is the question I'm trying to figure out. My identity is unknown, I have never had one of my own. Face's that are  scattered across the floor pick one up to try it on.. Looks good on me but its not mine, what does Shawn look like is the question I'm trying to figure out. My identity is unknown, I have never had one of my own.. Lies in my mental filling cabinet replaced by the truth, the stories that are fabricated I seem to like more. The truth hurts how come Shawn doesn't tell the truth? Is the question I'm trying to figure out. My identity is unknown, I never had one of my own.  A past that is all to unforgiving... Riddled with pain and suffering the past won't stay where it belongs, the scars seem like fresh wounds. I'm still bleeding it won't it heal. Where is Shawn's future and will it heal what happen in the past? Is the question I'm trying to figure out. My identity is unknown, I never had one of my own.

Could fate have bought you to me? Could it be devine intervention that lead our paths to meet? I never thought something so wonderful would ever happen to me.. I have been through so much.. Why am I so happy to have met you? These questions play over and over again in my mind..I think about them almost everyday..I don't know the answer to those questions, but I do know  that You became my closest friend and I believe all the tragedies I ever gone through were worthwhile since they led me to meet you!

I see your courage, to push though and persevere no matter what difficulties you may face. I see your great sense of humor and how it makes people laugh beyond comprehension.. I  see your intelligence  it builds your understanding and appreciation for life. I see your spontaneous nature it is what takes away your fear for the uncertainty and destroys your doubt. I see your strength it sends chills down my spine and brings me to my knees in awe..I see your energy it replenishes your very soul and opens up your mind to possibilities.I see your faith and confidence it guides you though obstacles that you would never be able to face alone. I see your intuition its keen to deception which keeps you out of trouble! I see your smile it can illuminate the dark world we live in and makes life worth living.. I see your heart, is it my home where I feel safe and comfortable. I see your beauty, you are the most beatiful creation in the world to me...Its not only my eyes that see you its my heart and mind.. Its every atom that makes me Shawn that sees every atom that makes you Bethany