Why do I continue
Allowing them to use me
Why do I smile
Through this wretched agony

They sit back and watch
As I do what they need
They sit back and laugh
As I break down and bleed

But I still insist
On helping the needy
But still I'm blind
To those who are greedy

I live off my kindness
And yet I'm breaking
To them I just a target
An advantage for the taking

The only home from the pain
Is when my ink hits the paper
Without this relief I'd go insane
Sometimes I wish I was just a vapor

You think you understand me
But the truth you do not see
You think I'm full of happiness
But intact I'm just full of stress

You ask me if I'm okay
"I'm feeling great today"
LIE, deep inside I'm holding pains
My heart and soul covered in stains

I put on my masquerade
A smile of a soul that fades
No one knows what lurks beneath
You have no clue for what I sheathe

My soul cauterized inside out
My heart seeping from all my doubt
I put a smile for which you ask
My disturbed hollow mask

What is this of which people
call the road to tomorrow
Why can't I see where it leads me
Why don't I see which I want to know

This road isn't built
on which my thoughts are spilt
I'm trying to know that of which is unknown
The thing that no one is ever shown

Only with time I seem to find
pieces of answer to my question
to where is my future to wind
Lost in a filled blank section

Along this twisted unseen road
Creating my own view
of my life that I've sowed
through the choices that I issue

This is the road to tomorrow
there is no time you can borrow
so make it while you got it
Create a path to which you fit

Internally numb
Crimson tears fall with each stroke
Searching for freedom

Today's another day
Just like the rest
I sit here pondering
With my thoughts all a mess

Imagination whirling
On turntables inside
And all I can come up with
Is this repeated style of write

Is it you I love?
Or is it the idea
Of being the loved?

Fear
What do I fear

I have a fear of height
but deep down its nothing
I would love to just take flight
but that's just a dream of something

I have a fear of spiders
creep me out far beyond my heartbeat
these fears are nothing just minors
my true fear lies deep, I can't defeat

I'm so afraid that I will just wake
from my visual reality
the life I have to just disappear, heartbreak
that it could be just a dreaming insanity

to lose all I have, experiences and all
would destroy me as deep as the core
finding out that my head created this wall
nothing I have done means anything, thrown out the door

my fear is to lose all that I love
all that I've experienced, aches and pains.
I don't want to lose anything, I don't want to leave
I love every last one of these stains

my soul is imprinted
my heart is engraved
my eyes can't be tinted
my being never enslaved

If I'm just dreaming
I'll shall never awake
this is a reality worth sleeping
I will not make the mistake

this is my biggest fear
unable to forever stay here.

As I float across the cosmos
Pleasantly with ease
Upon my face with a gentle kiss
From a summers breeze

Laying on the warm sand
In which gently I settle my feet
As waves wash over me
Where land and water meet

A vibrant paradise
Of silent bliss
A moment I
Would never miss

Mankind
A virus
Filling the world
With creations
Of destruction

I've decided to go on a holiday
Take a trip not so far away
I hike across the paper grass
An ink lake I almost pass

I dive right on in
Now ink stained veins
I travel across vast mountains
Trailing behind an ink river

Forming the ups and downs
The rolls and spins around
Dizzy I fall upon wet grounds
Tweeting of a pen birds sound

This is where you'll find me
Upon an ink stained paper grass sea

If searching for a purpose
Isn't that a purpose itself

Strength comes from within
None can douse your flame but you
Burn bright like the stars

We may burn to dust
But we can rise from the ash
To ascend once more

Follow your hearts wildest dreams
Across streams
Of imaginations seams

Somehow
you found a crack
In my impenetrable wall
and just
slipped right on in

Personal
Enlightenment
And
Clarity
E**mbraced

A stench so foul
Haunts these grounds
Follow your nose
Silence is the only sound

Drifting in the arms of an angel
Gracefully floating across the seas
Gleaming stars shimmering above
Resting my lonesome soul at ease

Your whispers melt away my armor
Invading with a soft sweet aroma
My heart beats to your every breath
Diving deeper and deeper into my depths

Share your joy all around
Moments now rarely found
Inviting all without a sound
Laughter and fun will be inbound
E**mbrace the love which surrounds

An ever changing code
Constantly perfected
T**hrough its persistant errors

Your gazing smile
Sharp as the blade
Behind your back

We live in a paradise of lies
That sets our hearts on fire
It sets us to reach for the skies.

I sit upon my perch
Watching others rub
Their noses in dirt

Life has twisted so much
That all is seen is makeup
Just a powdered finishing touch

In a paradise of lies
That sets our hearts on fire
It's what sets us to reach for the skies

If one was to speak the truth
You'd be cast aside
Might even lose a tooth

So be careful where you tread
For the blooming rose has its thorns
For you never know what's truly been said

Sitting in a paradise of lies
Is what sets our hearts on fire
The day has come where truth dies

Quality of Normality
Is Deemed By The
Insanity of Majority

Diamonds trickle down my face
She accepts my hearts embrace

Silently holds dear
Every last word
Careful not to smear.
Recklessly told
Effortlessly severe,
Trust turns cold

Time
Time and time again
We worship and fear time itself
But little do most realise
That time is just
A mathematical equation
To secure us into a chain
Giving us the idea of an end

Time
Time is made of numbers upon numbers
Just think for one moment
Numbers have an infinite value
Therefore numbers can reach
an infinite decimal place

Time
If we take this all into account
For it may feel faster than it seems
But we are eternal
For time is just numbers
In which we tried to cage
The life of each being

Time
An endless restriction
If trapped in the box
Or an eternity
Of exploration

Time, what is time
time is a measurement
  a measurement to restrict.
We live within time
time controls our daily life
  we fight against the clock.
Time is a human creation
free yourself of human chains
  and learn to live as one.
Only then will one truly understand.

Masterfully Managing Entities *Migrating,
Effortlessly  Entering  M*y          Encasement

A flower doesn't
bloom in an instant

Animals master survival,
What do we master?

"Normal" a rating
Created by majority

Hiding away
In cage
Scared to stray
Upon lifes stage

Some days I wonder
What should I do
My brain travels yonder
For an idea or two

When my head is out of ideas
What should I do
I look upon autumn trees
Foraging flora for a delicious hue

And then the days where I draw a blank
What should I do
Maybe I should steal a tank
Blow up a city, kablew

What if my heart decides to move
What should I do
Should I fall in love
And chase after you

These days I just wonder
That's what I do
Laying here I ponder
Waiting for something new

No more shall I
Weigh down anyone
I will show you
How strong I've become

I've got two hands
And two feet
I've got a brain
And my own heart beat

I'll show the world
Who I am
So you better look out
Cause I've got a plan

There's an expanding rift inside my chest
As I hear you take your last breath

Humans are fragile
Believing they cannot break
Love says otherwise

Torn and breaking
Worn and aching
Sleeping with eyes wide open
Nerves creaking, inside broken

Pushed to the limits
Barely pulling through it
Body feels its going to snap
All for that green crap

Greedy rich men drawing us in
For we need to survive
Waving green, we're worshipping
Feeding on us barely alive

The beat of my heart
Syncs with every breath you take
In soft harmony

Unchained and clear
Released from time
A new horizon near

Now the question we all like to ask
is who am I and what to be?
The answer to this question
isn't one to find.
For all I know is I am me.
and life will take me where I'm meant to be
Life is like a train,
from which you will have a ton to gain.
The travel that which we all take
may just make your soul quake
The long and windy path we are taken
will have us all awaken
For we may not understand
the end that is to come will be oh so grand.
The answer to the question is as simple as one..two..three
who am I? I am me

One seed grows a forest
One second burnt to ashes

Staring deep into her eyes
Nights just whisk bye
Her smile is the sun to my day
A little flick to ease my pains away

Her words serenade my ears
Whistling away all my deep fears
She is the yin to my yang
The lullaby my heart sang

The flicker in her eyes
Light up the starry night skies
She cherishes my heart so
A blooming garden does grow

She is my sunshine
My dripping rain
A love to last the end of time
A ride on a bumpy train

Accentuating
Your breathing, tuning the beats
Of my aching heart

Stars above
Twinkle bright.
Through a dark
Silent night

When downcast
Know your worth
Stand up strong
Love your life

I miss you with my heart
for the days been long apart
I miss your piercing smile
it will still be awhile
I will never stop the fight
you're all of think of day and night
You have unlocked my soul
caused me to feel whole
I'm drifting through the day
thinking, waiting for the way
The day sure will arrive
so for this I will strive
I'm missing you.

Here I am once again
In a place I know to well
Perched upon the blank plain
I imagine it worse than hell

It seems I have left but a speck
Of imagination for possible creation
I say to myself "it will return, just give it a sec"
My mind full of nothing, the void invasion

Every time I return to the absence
It draws me in deeper, draining
My thoughts, causing the loss of sense
My dreams and hopes it's consuming

Will I escape this time
Will I ever create another rhyme
Or will my thoughts be silent as a mime
NO, this is just an obstacle I shall climb

I will make it out alive
My inspiration shall kick in
So for this I shall strive
Splash this void with creation and win

Eyes Are Blind
To The Seas Behind
An Amazing Mind

They ask me to let them in
To see what is going on in my mind
But all I can do I stare
And ask myself
That exact same question

*What is going on in my mind?

Starry sky glows
Entire galaxies paint
Our night which flows

With One Spark
The Mind Arcs
To Hit The Mark

Whose eyes do you see
Staring back in the mirror

Have you noticed
Everything that goes by
It all goes so fast
Soon enough we all say "Goodbye"

Time just slips away
Moments just disappear
Barely remember day by day
Back in time we try to peer

The sounds of time
So loud yet unheard
The tick tocking rhyme
Like the whistles of a bird

As fast as days go
Take in all the little things
Enjoy everything as you grow
For time forever shall sing