Waking up next to you
was my favourite thing
in the world.
you think i'm just winding you up
but i know you're the prettiest person
i've ever seen
and seeing you every morning
was my ecstasy on my veins.

You were so real, so beautiful.
it only proves to me that i'm still
trapped in you,
willingly,
only for you.

I don't know how to win you back
but i know that i won't be around you any more
since i broke you heart to pieces.
It's silly to ask but, come back to me.

Here's a story of a hopeful little girl with big hazel eyes and big dreams about the world and now she's grown up.

You go like,
"Don't share too much." but
She go like,
"Sometimes, it's not okay to
not share the tears that fall at 2 am,
staying up all night,
thinking about the person who once shared everything with.
Or the malicious thoughts that run through your head
every time you close your eyes,
just lying steady in your bed."
And then you go, again,
"but still it's you who get hurt through the process, don't you care about others like me?"
She go like,
"No, I'd crumbling away like a sandcastle but it doesn't mean that the castle never been on the sand, does it?"

After 7 years, she still thought of the day but regret not to be fully honest with the boy cause today one year ago was the day he committed.

Looking back when we were together.
I stared at your eyes and
the glorious moment left me alone.
Put the memories behind all.

The colour, the chain on you lies vanished away into the water.
You were my everything.
Find my past until I met you
I'm cringing.

My-heart-without-chains started gradually burning my insides.

The perks of being-alone is none.

I've taught that everything swings into action
but never told why.
how can I suppose to say
to "never give up"
but sometimes giving up and letting it all go
is the best option I've got
because I realise I'm wasting my time
and all you lot hungers to please and
serves to your Masters,
lying to my face.

On champagne supernova,
we are all losing in faith
and now you're telling me
that I'm entitled to live with a certain set of mind sets,
circumstances, but rather with a certain set
of attitudes.

I'm to devour for everything,
and nothing and
it's almost time for you
to see what's in my mind
yet ironically you never even replied me back
and it seems you don't want me any more.

Go miles before I fall asleep,
slumber in my nightmare, that's all you will get.
I Surrender.