.pr.s.: well... if i am deluded? can i claim melancholly to be of equal ontological excuse to a flu... and say: i was infected by a mental illness? and there was never some, "mythical" origin of the illness... as you're sure i'm aware, i do not associate mental illness as having origin in a genesis of solipsism... there's nothing Kantian about it... for me... mental illness is very much an extension of virology... but this be the tempus for the crux of the body contra mind dichotomy... which since the 17th century hasn't been resolved... or has been... by the zombie squadron of the pharma-ingesting spooks of: awaiting a phobia of the white-coats urban myths... of course i fall to sleep thinking about killing someone... why wouldn't it? i end up eating a chicken the next day... what's the difference of a "somebody" for the worth of "something"?
whiskey,
KMFDM...
very much akin
to ready to blow...
nine inch nails...
the kids and the punk
and what
was industrial rigid...
and "being" white...
well...
if we're all going
to geneology
the whole "concern"
for history:
originating from
a people
with not tabloid
literature
having succumbed
to colonialization...
"save" the white women...
what?!
with not asian fetish?!
who, are, you?
teenage suicides
engaging in social
media...
well...
Freddy Mercury was
just revived via:
another bites the dust...
what's agitating?
the inactive presence
of a screen,
that, i somehow need
to make tattoo of...
scripted rhapsody of
the believable people...
like:
people who arm their
psychology with
the orientation
of... "petting" tarantulas
or boa snakes...
touch all you want:
but try a second time
to extract character
and behavioural nuance
from these... "things"...
me?
voluntary celibate...
cenobite *** a
lost leash of leather straps...
every time i ****
off: the hand
becomes the ****...
grip and no soft pouch
of a cuddle of
****** in,
either lip, or...
no... i don't know
what a "missing"
******* feels like...
punk bores me...
punk always bored me...
esp.when championed
by commentators
alligned to...
do you know what
the entry criterion
for the proud boys
was?
being punched...
no... not on the face...
and having to remember
a recital
of the pleb's favorite
cereal brands...
how about a new
limbo for the "worth"
of entry...
punching yourself
in the face
20+ times...
and then remaining silent...
while the history
of your mother's
****** exploits is
revealed to you
by your grandmother...
how's that?
i pet a cat, i *******,
shape of the water
(females *******),
i take a ****,
i take a ****:
yeah... sorry..
no scented candles,
no internet cameras...
did i coincide with
jordan b. peterson:
yes...
i will never **** these
women...
given they're
**** actresses from
the 1970s...
i, like: vintage...
quirky hair
with the...
gob's worth of *******'s
worth of scrap...
and a bullion
of throbbing quirk
looping lips...
i have assimilated
over 20 years in england,
3 years in scotland...
being asked: where are you
from?
like some ******* tourist...
****** me off...
was i going anywhere?
or... point being:
am i, "anywhere"?
ah...
so i am nowhere:
so reading Heidegger makes
a lot of sence, then?
given that
no
is no sein
and that...
as much of where
is "there"...
but this sort of pedantic
address for the use of language,
does translate into
the habitual, and the "readily" given
use, concerning the "idle"
hands of a plumber...
a lay-job contra
the pedantic interest...
well... sure...
we can succumb
to investigating contrasts
that are not worth the while
for being 2 x 2 rubric
statements...
having lost purpose
as 2 x 3...
thus, at times...
i almost forget...
time...
that precedence
hierarchy...
the precedence membrane
of who are allocated
the purpose of being
contemporary...
i... somehow...
forget to dismember
the cradle mimic sound
of insect
(entombed in the cracking
wood),
with the rattling sound
of a lizard limbo...
to the R of the trill...
like... what gives off the same
found of creaking
footsteps,
or the burning of wood...
close approximate...
yet there are some people
who i know are not
deserving of a precedence
whether in hierarchy or...
but these people will
congest themselves
to a bite-luck quest
of argument in reproductive-recreation...
so?
failure escapes them
now...
failure?
will not escape them...
greeks might have
"invented"
1 + 1 = 2...
no argument, loose association...
but the hindu theologial
rubric, stating:
evil deed + apathy = good eventuality
for all...
is necessarily false,
is worth being negated...
i like the Hindu algebra
of time being both:
expansive, & constrictive...
"my" world?
has already disappeared...
by coincidence...
i've watched how...
no... i'm not here to make sense,
to invest in a non-empirican
standard of a (0, 0) vortex
of beginning:
clinging to being perpetually
cleaned...
amnesia-ridden...
and even if i let my
ailment be known "to" or
"in", "public"...
the life of
a baker, or a butcher...
can't become overtly,
"complicated"...
unless it's a genetic anomaly...
because a flu...
is a type of virsus...
poly-morph...
that is never...
translated from person
to person...
mental illnesses are
never deemed worthy
of the strict scrutiny of
virology...
like...
all of thinking is safe...
and is not ridden with
pathology...
like... mental illness
is a hubris of medicine...
like: all of medicine is
only physical,
and no metaphysics is handy...
how...
like... mental illness is
such a pathology,
such a fetish,
that... it cannot be correlated
to something,
aking to the phenomenon
of propaganda...
sure...
the common flu...
i know where my mental "illness"
stems from...
a russian girlfriend...
who told me...
she was abducted as a child,
and *****,
and what not...
trying to excavate
an ******* from me...
mental illness?
well... bilingual is the new ******...
and any personal
interaction is: worthy of
the... very understanding public...
you know what song
i have, to rely to lodged
in my mind?
rob zombie's - michael...
me?
yeah, i know:
a beard doesn't make a man...
then again...
i rather be subject to
something being itchy,
than itch for something...
proud boys:
you sure you joined the right club?
what... entry level of:
get punched by the "sharks"
having to cite breakfast cereals?!
wha......?
it's like i'm tied with
this chick from Siberia...
and i can't get be rid of her!
it's like:
we married...
upon the cranium ring
of death being part of
our ceremony of fingers...
she ****** around,
i went to the *******...
it's like: that ******* giggle of her's?
that **** is haunting...
russian milk skin...
some new variant of aristocracy...
so... proud boys...
get punched giving names of breakfast
cereals?!
right...
ever punch yourself in the face
to the point of giving 'erself
a plum-shadow?
****! better rewrite than in
"english":
pflaumeschatten;
oh i'm married...
i'm ******* certain of it...
but the priest
wasn't a closet pedohpile...
it was whoever
the it that strangulates
my he to she and
her she to my she
of a St. Mort... or death...
yeah...
i'm married: post-scriptum...
punch yourself in the head
20 times for a black-eye,
and then tell me:
there is not an element
of virology
worth being investigated
in the realm
of mental illness...
common flue...
and...
being a girl who says prior
to wanting to *******:
i was abused as a child,
i was molested...
better death being the *******
priest
than some *******
dog-wishing leash of a:
scuttle for words & worms...
she can be as *******
randy as hell...
while i can have the "pleasure"
of having kissed several
prostitutes...
marriage, inverted...
because i just can't stop
myself from seeing similarities
in...
the public realm...
of...
the foul breath of the other's
ego...
****** for biling.
psychotic for by 'er ego
'ur ego too...
it's like a marriage
of the anti-materialists,
the wedding ring of paupers...
mentall illness is so funny...
when having to compensate
its difficulty,
with the "difficulty"
of having to attire oneself
with the role of
being a supermarket cashier...
it's like:
this is medicine, yes?
so... what isn't metaphysics,
isn't exactly mental illness,
but a meta-illness...
so... the orthodoxy of the scalpel...
heeeeeeeeeeeeeeee heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
******* fairground!
let's do circles and zigzags!
and that one *****
that told herself:
i have to get away....
my love has a grave
and i ****** well hope
there's only her name
on the crux of the marble...
and her ghost
******* my dead body
to boot.