You must be tripping I can see you’re playing on me
You run around singing holy and then you play them games on me
I’m not deaf I can hear what people are saying about me
I’m not enough of the type of girl that you usually choose to be with  
I’m not a model or a instagram pretty girl-my ******* sag my *** is fat and flat and I got stomach rolls
Ignoring Lizzo but boy just know that I’m built like that girl
Im socially awkward and I’m always ****** I guess you could say that’s why I’m so poor
And your so cool I hear the girls see you and go crazy I guess we live in different worlds
You’re so iced out and your style is uber fancy
You’re at nobu eating nice boy you’re so bougee not classy
Meanwhile I’m struggling sometimes I can’t afford anything even the most basic ****  
It’s all my fault though cause society would place all the blame on me
I gave up and choose this life I didn’t try enough so don’t waste a breathe on me
They don’t know the context and how anxieties flood my mind and it’s so constant and I’m insane most of the time
I’m bipolar so it kind of makes me go crazy
Sometimes I want to pull the trigger and end the pain-and you’re so deluded and I guess I’m just crazy
I guess that’s why it’s easy for you to sing about it but do nothing
Stalker ring my bell one more time so I can ignore you  
And I’m in hell cause if you showed up again I’d forgive you
You broke my heart and you left me like I was nothing
Guess she wasn’t lying when she said she had to lose you to love me
He wasn’t there so I grew stronger and I stopped the all overdosing and cutting
The hospital always felt like a jail cell and they all loved to make jokes about me
And you sing about how you’d be there how can I hold on without a real ring
Says he’s changed but he’s still playing
Thinking he’s winning but I’m not staying
He stalked me so it made me go crazy
Shaved my hair off cause I thought you replaced me
Hurt myself and got arrested
Hospital stays they felt like prison
Overdosing cause I missed him
Hospital stays they felt like prison
He might be older but I’m wiser  
He thinks he cooler but I’m the winner  
He might thinner but I’m thicker
He might be king but I’m the holy Mecca
He might be everything that all stupid these hoes want
To all these basic ******* he really is god
But they don’t know him like I do he has so many problems
A broken man with such low standards and so much karma
I feel like he wants me to come in and solve all his problems
Make him feel like he’s accomplished
Like he did justice for someone
Status got something do with it
Singing his blues like a stupid kid
Still he haunts me every night I swear these walls must be talking
Cause I hear him all the time I swear we always are talking
Is he my guy let me decide
If I choose him would he ride or die
Will he stay loyal, time will tell
He’s so spoiled that’s all I can tell
My best friend but is it all pretend
I hear him talking he says he’s mine
I’m just for him I guess he decides
I let him in he takes control now we’re both laughing singing let’s take over the world
It’s all for jokes so don’t go clowning I’m just a muse whose always drowning
But don’t come save I’m in the shallow end
And know the water is my second best friend
He is my first I write a song ps I love you
Don’t take too long

You must be tripping I can see you’re playing on me
You run around singing holy and then you play them games on me
I’m not deaf I can hear what people are saying about me
I’m not enough of the type of girl that you usually choose to be with  
I’m not a model or a instagram influencer girl-my ******* sag my *** is fat and flat and I got stomach rolls
Ignoring Lizzo but boy just know that I’m built like that girl
Im socially awkward and I’m always ****** I guess you could say that’s why I’m always so poor
And you’re so cool I hear all the girls want to be your girl I guess we live in different worlds
You’re so iced out and your style is oh so uber fancy
You’re at nobu eating so nice boy you’re so bougee but your current lady stays so classy
I can’t pretend like you for the role in a music video
I’m always struggling sometimes I wish you knew what it was really like to be poor
I can’t even afford food without food stamps anymore
But it’s all my fault though cause society would place the blame on me
I gave up and choose this life I didn’t try enough so they don’t waste their breathe on me
They don’t know the context of homelessness and how anxieties flood my mind and it’s so constant and how I’m insane most of the time
I’m bipolar so it kind of makes me always go crazy
Sometimes I want to pull the trigger and end my pain-you’re so deluded but I think that you’re my only friend
I guess that’s why it’s easy for you to sing about it but do nothing
Stalker ring my bell one more time so I can ignore you like you’re nothing
And I’m in hell cause if you showed up again I’d forgive you like it was nothing
You broke my heart but I still love you forever so its something
Guess she wasn’t lying when she said she had to lose you to love me
You weren’t there so I grew stronger and I stopped the overdosing and cutting
The hospital always felt like a jail cell and they all loved to make jokes making fun of me
And you sing about how you’d be there but how can I hold on with this nothing
He says changed but he’s still playing
He thinks he’s winning but I’m not staying
He stalked me back then and it made me go crazy
Shaved my hair off cause I thought you replaced me
Hurt myself and got arrested
Hospital stays they felt like prison
Overdosing cause I missed him
Hospital stays they felt like prison
He might be older but I’m wiser  
He thinks he cooler but I’m kinder   
He might experienced but I’m the killer
He might be king but I’m the holy Mecca
He might be everything that these stupid these hoes want
To all these basic ******* I guess he really is god
But they don’t know him like I do that boy has so many problems
A broken man with such low standards and so much built up karma
I feel like he wants me to come in and solve all of his problems
Make him feel like he’s accomplished
Like he finally did someone justice
Status got something do with it
Singing his blues like a stupid kid
Still he haunts me every night I swear these walls must be talking
Cause I hear him all the time I swear we always are talking
Is he my guy let me decide
If I choose him would he ride or die
Will he stay loyal, time will tell
He’s so spoiled that’s all I can tell
My best friend but is it all pretend
I hear him talking he says you’re mine again
And I want him forever so I guess he decides
I let him in now we’re both cosmically aligned
He is my friend so I write him again  
Okay I’ll hold on cause you are my only friend