The things  i should thought of before I started singing.

I know I should start apologying  because I've did all the craziest  things .

Even though   you still took me out for ice cream.
Because you got tired of me skyping.

so then  in the morning we both went biking.  

Then you  started going skydiving.

Then I cried a million times don't you  show  that time to  me .

Because I'm just another dream that you'll  ever see.

i almost  cried when i wrote this song for my fiance Jonathan .

i love u alot i really  really  do . and i wish i can explain  it to u by saying sorry for texting so many  times . please forgive me johnthan.

I wish I could yell at you
I wish you knew
what pain you put upon me
I wish I could be set free
Free from this binding pain, I'm black & blue
And the only one to blame is you
I've tried to take away the blame I feel toward you
To release you of this fault, to forgive you but I can't
I can't do it, you broke everything we had
Everything I tried to build with you
I'm now through
But the worst thing is
at the end of the day
when I go down to lay
It's that I still love you
Even though I should hate you
Even though if I can't forgive you, Even though you broke my heart
I
still
l
o
v
e
you Johnthan
And I hate myself for it