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Leo Pold  Dec 2011
Utterances
Leo Pold Dec 2011
Your analyst once called you a wretch
and told you to leave.

You say you get
“caught up in the moment” but really

you are morphing in disarray –
poet to death-marker, undertaker to toddler;

it’s boring and you accept that.
What you lack in understanding

you make up for in crushed leaves.
Like a tractor-trailor in the Bronze Age,

you are out of place.
But the sky is starrier than ever

so you feel okay
when the wind hits your eyes.
WendyStarry Eyes Oct 2018
One of me and my cousins
favorite places to play
Was behind Papas shop
I can still smell the saw dust
Repairs were made
That one could trust
Made from cinder blocks
Was a minnow pond
There is where Papa
Raised his own fishing bait
The wild blackberry field
Grew thorny on the other
Side of the gate
Best times of my youth
Spent on The Hill
Jumping off the pumphouse
Drawing in the sand
Playing chase with my cousins
While waiting for Grandma's
Sunday dinner,
Youth was so grand
Uncle Beaty's trailor was at the center Of the hill,  where his sister's took turn Caring for him, where his wisdom
Was instilled
When I brought Uncle Beaty
His dinner I would stay
To listen to his prayers
He placed in my heart
God's truth deeply within
Protecting me from my future of sin
For the simpleness of life
The greats of my family
Have revealed to me
Is to spread the love of
Jesus,  your heart will be
♡♡♡Set free♡♡♡
Lord, thank you for the great blessings of The Hill, Grandma, Papa, Aunt Mama Jane, Uncle Truette and Uncle Beaty. Truth in my heart forever instilled♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡♡
Emily Brien Aug 2010
We huddled in that transformed trailor,
Words warmed our lips
but my heart kept cold.

Questions were posed,
The issues were profound:
The Meaning of Life, the Purpose of Sorrow, etc.
but my mind stayed silent.

I became complacent in that place
Between question and answer
but a low grumble grew

It grew inside my chest, I tell you!
It fought to surpass the cage of my ribs
It cried out through my very flesh,
“The truth is quiet! The truth is quiet!”
dennis drain Sep 2016
Maby I was cursed at birth to sin over an over again,
Throwin caution to the wind if I oppose what they want I win,
Can't tell a young up N comin **** nothin an have em listen.
Taught myself the meanin of a mission never fear an slipin ain't real when it comes to Killin
Black clothes cover me from my head to my toes so nobody knows I'm lurking in the shadows.
Little 22 ready do work on you punk mother *******
Talkin smack on some real gangster *** soldiers and you in trouble
Catch yourself lookin at a young white gang banga lookin to prove something to ya
Act withouta crew to jump in an say somethin cuz until your dead he done wit you
Hustle in school on the low key ain't tryin to be cool
I just love ta feel money in my pocket and  fresh clothes that when you ask I can say I bought it
Momma used to teach me rap songs and had me recite em to her dopin friends
Said I could be anything if I keep my mind open
Never thought I'd catch a case and spend 3 years away
Or smokin dope with me would ever be thing
But I guess it's OK I was 18
Actin like a man puttin grown man problems in my hand to deal with on my own.

Some times I look around, deep breath leavin my chest, face marked with a  frown, thinking **** how much would a chance change what pain Im feelin now.
If I had grown up in a diffrent town.
If stable was a way to describe my life would I have ever learned to be down.
Would I still fear Sleepin cuz my dreams bring the faces of the people I seen gunned down
Maby I would have some money someone gave me thinkin I'd do something good with it....
Haha **** I wish

If I change today, make a plea with God that I'll do things differently will he show himself and embrace me??
Or look at the lives I've takin and turn away
Leavin me to stray down a darker path where I can't find the light of day.
**** what they told me led me astray.
Dreams come true when you work hard they ain't free.
I'm smarter than most my age. Makin it work for my girl and me.
No help from anybody, lookin far off into the distance no love to be seen
Just a world against me, corrupt by the ones leading.
But the upper class don't see.  
Nothin makes sense in a backwards country money hungry people talkin out they *** about poverty.
But they don't see, laws sayin it's better they sleep on the streets than in a trailor parked in town.
Rather see a dead family than one strugglin to get they feet on the ground
guy scutellaro Mar 2023
a shadeless lamp
lit her face

" i'll teach you how to dream,"
she told me in her room

broken and beautiful
she was 32
red hair
she had freckles
on her *******
and lost eyes
desperate grey
eyes
like a coming storm
offered heartache held in the palm of her hand

her name i can't remember
it was a kind of whiskey
she loved whiskey

she said it again
"i'll teach you how to dream"

but i had surrendered
many times
many years ago
somewhere along
the road
to nowhere

and she passed out during the act
and the rabbit
was dancing in the ditch
and
so i finished

"don't you get it," i whispered
through her snoring

"we were faded
broken

a long
long

time ago"

walking out trailor
the saddest place on earth
is sante fe at sunrise
ZACK GRAM  Mar 2019
"ZACKAMORTIS"
ZACK GRAM Mar 2019
I WANT TO DIE SO MUCH, TOUCH LUCK IM STILL BREATHING, WISH I WASNT!!! WAS LIKE NO SHE HADN'T, WHAT'S THE MATTER? WILL I EVER FEEL BETTER? KICK THE BUCKET WITH A LETTER NEXT TO MY BED. EYES WIDE OPEN WITH ***** WRITTEN ON MY FORE-HEAD, KNOWING I WAS BETTER OFF! TRUE STORY ABOUT A WASTED LIFE-LIVING A LIFE THAT WAS A BIG WASTE, SO MANY YEARS GONE AND PASSED, STILL FEEL STUCK IN THE PAST, CANNOT GET IT TOGETHER, WILL I EVER BE A WINNER INSTEAD OF BEING A LOSER? DEATH HAUNTS ME AND IT HURT'S SO BAD, IM GOING MADD, MY MIND IS GONE, FAR FROM HAPPY I AM SAD, SO BE GLAD, MY LIFES OVER, FORGET THE FUTURE, PRESENT AND PAST, IM IN LAST, ON BLAST, HELD IN A FULL BODY CAST, LOST SOME DEEDFUL CASH, KNOWN HOW TO MASH, BUT AM AFRAID TO GOTO MASS, I WONDER WHEN I DIE WILL I GOTO HEAVEN, OR WILL I END UP IN HELL, LINED UP WITH DEMONS I SEE THEM ALREADY AN FEEL GHOSTS, I WANT TO GO HOME, LORD TAKE ME AWAY, TIRED OF BEING ALONE, BORED AND ZONED, IVE GOTTEN ******, SILLY FACT IS I LIVE 4 DEATH, THE DAY I SEEN THAT MAN DIE IS THE DAY I SEEKED REVENGE, IN THE END, I WILL SHINE OR RIDE HIGH, MAYBE OFF MYSELF, GOD KNOWS, WANTING TO DIE, WONDERING WHY I AM ALIVE, EASY AS PIE, BLAST MY HEAD OFF, ONEDAY YOU WILL SEE ME, OH BABY I CANT LIVE LIKE THIS, MY LIFE IS RUINED, SO I ASK MYSELF WHY? WHY MUST I LIVE MY LIFE WHEN IM ALWAYS SICK AN TIRED, ALWAYS LONELY, ALONE ALL NIGHTS, ITS NOT RIGHT, LORD F MY POSITION, CAN I NOT JUST DIE, I CANT BREATHE ANOTHER BREATH WHEN MY WORDS GO UN-SPOKEN, MY HEART MIGHT EXPLODE, EXPOSED, WHEN WILL MY HURTS AN LOSSES GO, HOW MORE MANY DAYS ON MY OWN, UNTIL THEN, OUR PHONE WILL NEVER EXIST, FEELING LIKE A SIMP, WISH I FELT GROWN, LET 1 THING BE KNOWN, DEATH WILL CONSUME, ITS DEPRESSING, FULL OF WASTE, LEFT FOR DEAD IN A DITCH, THINGS FELL INTO PIECES, AFTER BEING DRAGGED CHAINED TO A TRAILOR HITCH, WELL WINCH, ILL GO FIRST, NO WORRIES IT WILL NEVER STOP HURTING, ITS THE WORST, MORE PAINFUL THEN BIRTH, I HATE THE EARTH, SO I GIVE IT ALL IM WORTH, IN THE END LOVE DOESNT WORK, SO MARK MY WORDS, HEAD TO HEELS, NO REASON EVER SENUATION KING OF AN UNDERGROUND, ITS WHERE I MAKE YOU LAY, YOUR LAST DAY, OUR LAST WORDS, FRESH FLOWERS ON YOUR GRAVE, YOU PAVED THE WAY BUT TODAY WE WILL SEE, FROM HEAVEN TO THE DEEPEST DEPTHS OF THE UNIVERSE, THE WRONG SEASON SHADOWED IN DARKNESS SUCOMMING THE LOVE AROUND ME, SO HARD TO SURVIVE WITHOUT YOU, MY WIFE OR THE ONE WHO CARES, AKA ME AND MINE, THE LAST SECOND MAKING IT TO THE FINISH, I WANT YOU LADY HAVE MY BABY, IM GOING CRAZY, SPEECHLESS BUT READ MY LIPS, LET ME GO ON LIVING, CORPORATE ISSUES, ILL OFFER YOU, THIS KEYBOARD GIVING A CODE LIKE THESE PAST 5 GRAPHS, ILL TEACH YOU BASIC MATH, YOU CANT EVEN THINK, GIVE YOU WOMAN, GIVE YOU A WHIRL, A TWIRL, A SWIRL, ALL AROUND THE GLOBE, THE AK SMOKE HIT WITH A BANG, GONE THRU THE ROOF, ACE COOPSWOOP, THE LATEST NEWS, MY LIVE BLOG, CALL CNN A BADASS IS IN THE BUILDING, SHIPS AND SQUADRANTS, IM SO POWERFUL, COROSPONDENCE CONSULTING, TALKING BIG GUNS, WATCH THE BUSH, WORK FOR ME OR LOSE PLACEMENT, YOUR GREED IS TROUBLING YOUR MONEY SITUATION, MAKING PAPER BILLS FAKE, I AM A PATRIOT, SO ICY FREEZING THE GREAT LAKES, TAKING ON PIKES PEAK, FREE IN THE COLUMBIAN STREETS, DROP A BIZZLE, LIKE 80'S CUBA, DONT SAY MY NAME TWICE, I HAVE ALL THE SUPPLIES, I WILL ABIDE, YOU WILL ATTEST, THE BEST, SPEAKING FOR THE REST, A PUBLIC ANNOUNCMENT AND FAIR WARNING, LISTEN OR GO MISSING, AMW, BUILDING SKY-SKRAPERS, MINING FOR PRECIOUS ORE, BURIED, LISTEN WITH NO AMOUNT, IM WILLING IM GOING TO WE ARE GOING TO, IM WILLING WERE STUNTING, LETS HAVE IT, GIVE YOU THE BIDDINGS, THE FUNDAMENTALS, PIVOT, PACK AND SHIP, NATIONAL CHAMPION TURNED INTERNATIONAL AWARD WINNER, OUT IN THE VALLEY WOMEN BADDER THEN HALLEY, VOICE LIKE CAREY, BABY WHAT YOU WANT ILL MAKE YOU A TRILLIONAIRE, HOLD STOCKS RUN SHARES WHO CARES, SKIN BARE, THAT FINE BODY PREPPED HAIR WITH A FLASH OF GLAMOUR AN TOUCH OF GLARE, BODY WORKING, TWIRLING, I WANT, TAKE A SEAT, ALL ACROSS ALL THE LANDS, IF YOU UNHEALTHY I MIGHT HURL SO GIRL GO ON SOMEWHERE OTHERWISE, PEARL, DIAMOND, YOURE MY LOVE, OUR FORCE, NEED/WANNA MAN LIKE ME IN YOUR LIFE, COME OVER HERE I WILL DO YOU RIGHT, BODYING YOU TONIGHT, WORKING THAT TIGHT, POLITE, **** SIDE, SO BE MINE, I GOT THAT NINE, PROTECT THE LIME LIGHT, WANNA REAL G LEMME TELL YOU HOW IT IS, ALRIGHT? TRUST ME, MY FUTURE WIFE, HEART BEAT CONNECTED TO A HEART BEAT WHAT A NICE FEATURE, YOURE SOAKED, ALL THAT WATER PUT IT IN THE AIR, AYE MILLI THIS A BILLI, ONLY GONNA SAY IT ONCE, IM ALREADY GONE AND MIGHT BE DONE, SO POP IT, ANYONE ASKS YOURE MINE, MY DIME, HANDS TOGETHER, A 1 NIGHT STAND TRANSFORMED INTO A LIFE LONG RELATIONSHIP, WE MAKE LOVE, GOT ME BEGGING DONT GO, THIS THE G WITH THE SECRET TRADE, GOT PICTURES OF YOU HAND ME THE ROPE, BETTER BELIVE, FOUR-FOUR, WOOD WHEEL SWERVING, BIG RIMS SPINNING, PAINT GLISTENING, BASS BUMPING, RIDING *****, MY NAMES NOT OUT, MY NAMES ON TOP, REPPING THA NAWF, A DEATH NOTE TO END RAP IN ONE DAY, BIGGER RANK, HIP-HOPS DEAD, LAYING IN YOUR BED 2 SHOTS 2 THE HEAD, 6 FEET AN STILL SINKING, GOT SLAUGHTER? NO COST, COOKING WHAT YOU WONT, LIKE MY FIRST VERSE, SO MUCH WORK, GATHERING ALL THE FISH IN THE SEA, BUYING BANKS, END YA, TRILL YA, PAY YA, EVEN MAIL YA, THATS WHY I CALL YOU TRICK, BIG BUSINESS I GOT A EXOTIC MOUTH, SPEAKING THE TRUTH, WOMAN I GOT SKILLS, IF MY DOUGHS YOUR DOUGH, TALKING OFF WITH THAT DRESS, GET RID THEM HEELS, DONT BE FAKE WITH A FAKE *** NAME, NICE LIPS, MAKING ME SHOUT, NO LOSS, CATCHING YOU SLIPPING, OFF WITH THEIR HEADS, GET OUTTA MY BED, HALF IS MINE, HALF IS YOUR'S, GIVE ME MY  NATIONWIDE TOURS, WHEN I SAY GOODMORNING BABY MOMMA, GOT YOU TO STOP CRYING SO DONT WORRY, I AM SORRY, THEY DONT STOP DROPPING, BABY BABY DONT FORGET, YOURE ANGELIC, THIS LOVES WAR, YOUR LIGHT GUIDES ME THROUGH THIS DARKNESS, IM DONE APOLOGIZING, SO RISE, RISE AN SHINE BRIGHT, A WOMAN WITH YOU WILL HAVE NO DRAMA, IM SO EXCITED, I CANT THINK, I MIGHT HAVE A HEART ATTACK, JUST 1 DAY, HOW THE HELL DID YOU THINK ILL HANDLE BABY MOMMA DRAMA? I ASK THE LORD, IS IT ME OR THE OTHER BROTHERS DOWN THE STREET? ANOTHER DAY AWAY, I JUST CANT, IN A CASKET IS THE ONLY WAY, NOTHING WILL TURN MY SITUATION IN A DIFFERENT DIRECTION,THIS DEMOND I SEE IS ATTACKING MY LOGIC, I LOVE YOU, MARRIAGE BABY IN A CARRIAGE THINKING ABOUT US AS ONE BURIED, NEXT TO ME THIS IS AMAZING, COULDNT BE MORE HAPPY, THE HURT IS REAL, THE DISTRESS IS A SACRIFICE ITSELF, I CANT EAT I CANT THINK, THIS LOVE IS KILLING ME, I DO BELIEVE I WILL NEVER CHEAT OR ESCAPE, OR EVEN IMAGINE THINGS GETTING WORSE, REALIZING NOW THIS A WRITTEN 24 HOUR MOVIE, LEGAL SMOKE, SCRAP UNDER THE TABLE, WISH YOU DIDNT HAVE TOO, BUT NEVER BE LIKE ME EVER, LOW-KEY VERY IMPORTANT INDIVIDUAL, CANT BE STOPPED MUST BE BAUGHT, DONT STOP, MAC PLAYA ****, BEATS ON A LIST, SO BACK-UP, WARRANTS FROM ATTITUDE, GOING TO STAY PAYED, LET THE BEAT DROP, LIKE A DON, A AMBASSADOR, A KING, OR A GOD, LETHAL ASSASIN, MAKING A KILLING, WORSE VILLIAN, MOST POWERFUL HERO, MOST DISCRIMATED LIVING, LIFE OF A TRILLIONAIRE, CANT HANDLE ME, DONT GET SHOT, I DONT CARE WHAT YOURE WORTH, YOU AINT WORTH THE ***, YOURE SO FAR BEHIND GET YOUR *** STARTED, TRY AND CATCH UP IM SO FAR AHEAD I PAVED THE WAY, NOT ONE PERSON TILL THIS VERY MINUTE CAN COMPETE, SO GET OUT OF MY PATH, GO DIG YOUR SHALLOW BURIAL SPOT, SLAVE, SOON TO BE ENCASTED IN YOURE OWN ****, SO CLEAN UP THIS ACT, EXPLAINING MY SITUATION, LET IT BE KNOWN, POSESSION IS LUCIFER, FROM CONCRETE PRINTS FATHER CALLED DON, ENDING WORLD DOUBT, I AM ALIVE, WITH THIS I NEVER DIE, SECRET SOCIETY SPEAKS FROM MY SOUL, THE FORCE OF FREIGHT TRAINS WANNA PLAY GAMES, 1 GALLON A MILE FOR WEIGHT, TOP TO BOTTOM FILLED MAKING YOU FAKE, MY PEOPLE'S LOCKED, TONS OF KEYS TO CITIES, PULL ANY CHICK, PULL ONE, PULL TWO, PULL THREE OR FOUR, NOT SCARED ONE BIT, GET IN A LICK, LIKE SLICK RICK, SLICK RICHS BROUGHT BACK ZACKS FIFTH WAR, THE REAL STARS AN STRAPS, GUN TO MY DOME, GIVE UP BEFORE YOU TRY AN THE TRIGGER FINGERS NOT MINE, I PUT ON AN SHOUT OUT I GOT BIZZLES, LONGEVITY OUTTA UPTOWN ATTRACTING ANYONE FROM ANY COUNTRY, DEAD FROM SICKNESS OR IN PAIN HELLS WITNESS, I PRAY SOME VOODOO RIGHT NOW, TO RISE THE FORESAKEN, WITH THIS HEX BRING OUT THE DEVIL.........
Z-PAC
ZACK GRAM Jul 2019
MAIN STEET BANGING,
WESTSIDE BROTHER,
PULL THE TRIGGA WIGGA-
IMMA A BIGGA FIGYA,
MASTER RACE,
ARYAN BROTHERHOOD TILL MY GRAVE,
KING OF NATIONS,
THY GOD SHALL COME IN THY NAME.
WE WIN YOU LOST-
IM BOSS,
IT CAME AT A COST,
NO SOUL NO REMORSE,
BODY THESE PUNKS LIKE A MEAL THATS 12 COURSE!!!


COME AT ME CROOKED,
ILL BRING OUT MY STEALTH BOMBERS!!!
COME AT ME,
ILL CALL ALL MY F-TWENTY TWO RAPTORS,
COME,
I GOT F-THIRTY FIVE FULLY EQUIPPED LIGHTNING....
I STRIKE FIERCE,
THIS MY CHAT,
THIS MY SPOT,
YOU MESS WITH MY LIVELY HOOD!!!
SO NOW I CALL APO AN TAKE YOU OUT...
ZMAN LOCKED UP,
BUT IM STILL OUT HERE MAKIN ENDS....

FAKE FRIENDS-
I DARE YOU TO ****** TRY ME,
ILL SHUT THIS **** DOWN LIKE SEVEN ELEVEN

THIS CHAT JUST DIED,
SINCE IM GONE THIS CHAT WRAP OVER,
NOW THAT IM GONE...
IM OVER HERE BILLIONS DEEP-MAKIN STACKS,
YALL ****** EMO OR FAT,
****** MATTER FACT,
NO I TAKE THAT BACK,
YOU A RAT,
A SNITCH BISH WHO I WANNA DRAG,
DRAG DOWN THE ROAD BY MY TRAILOR HITCH,
ITS A LYNCH,
TREE TIED TONGUE TWISTED STOP YAPPIN...

DEATH, WHAT IS IT?
IM NOT SCARED IVE SEEN IT,
BEEN THERE MANY TIMES-
ON THE VERGE OF A BREAKDOWN,
ASKING GOD? QUESTIONING ALL THE ABOVE?
BUT LISTEN HERE MOMMA JAMAIMA FAR FROM SYRUP....

I HOPE,
I PRAY THIS BITES YOU LATER IN YOUR LIFE,
FRANKLY IVE HAD ENOUGH,
ENOUGH IS ENOUGH,
THE BULLYING STOPS NOW,
YOU HAVE NO CHANCE,
IF YOU BURN MY HOUSE DOWN,
ILL GET BACK UP AN SHAKE YOU OFF,
A WISE RAPPER TOLD ME TO BRUSH MY SHOULDERS, LEARN MUCH????
NO MORE BULLYS NO MORE PAIN
Steven L Herring Dec 2016
There's a spot on your coat
And a frog in your throat
You haven't combed your hair
Or made your bed in months

Your days and your nights are all the same
Filled with a lack of desire and hint of shame
You've paced trails on all the floors of this house
You haven't been outside in weeks

The weight of those boulders
You carry on those shoulders
Would've cracked a lesser man in half
After an hour or two.

Now you're standing here in front of me
And the others here to see
Just what a mess you've left to clean up
Isn't this fun?

You're no good
To anyone
You mope around wearing other people's clothes
When you've got a closet full of your own fresh ones

Son!
You're no good to anyone
Nope.
No way.
No how.

You're a flicker
in a dying fire
A broken heart
and a lost desire
A blown out
trailor tire
The last ember
In a funeral pyre

Son.
You're no good to anyone
Not like this
Please...don't let it end like this...
Not like this....
Clarerize  Aug 2019
Home
Clarerize Aug 2019
As we begin our journey together I know we are home.
Because no matter where we live home is where the heart is.
And you my love are my heart.

We can live in a mansion,
A dublex or a trailor.
Non of that will matter as long as you are by my side.

When we are together we can weather any strom. As long we stand hand in hand nothing can bring us down. You are my home and that will never change.
ZACK GRAM Mar 6
Counting numbers adding letters
Cashing checks
Counting bodies
Windmill
Up creek
Den of fiends
House of a thief
Post mordum
Past locomotive
Price wreckage low interest
Right hand man
Middle body
Nobody autopsy on top the moment
Signature Kane kaeng
Staked shaken robbed
Horrible life
Beautiful path
Do the math my myspace said
Army need fed is my fields enuff
1 billion small future logic
60 trill just paid
Bills due
Hit the treadmill
Hike trail an live in a trailor
Move on move in move out inhouse
Travel pledgure peasants
Pleasants precious
Futher from any body
Above logic
Tragic so many memories
Lifes so lubby dubby
Pray i die at peace within
Bury me for my sins
Cronic at hand most land
Whats the plan im banned
Forever indebt
Dying is a process
Aleast we die friends
I care for you
In the end no hurt all love
Youre so safe with me
Vote Z History
Bands

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