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737 · Nov 2013
Feelings
Scott Shaffer Nov 2013
Why do we feel?
Is that our Achilles's heel?
Is this our curse,
Knowing we aren't feeling better, only worse,
Stay away, for I don't want to feel,
But if you do, than this loneliness won't heal,
Why are we burned with these feelings,
For they are such stupid things,
Why must I feel so lonely,
And why does it feel like it affects me only?
I hope this is just a dream,
Please let it be, for if not, then my life is coming apart at the seam.
730 · Nov 2013
Ripped Out
Scott Shaffer Nov 2013
Rip out this still beating heart,
Then call how you did it a art,
I'll still forever be yours,
Even if we live on different shores,
The pain you've caused,
The way you pointed out my flaws,
The wounds you make,
The hearts you break,
The lies you tell,
The day you made my life a hell,
None of those matter to me,
Don't you see,
I need you,
But you never knew,
Living in your head,
Pretending I was dead,
When I cried,
You just sighed,
I'm sorry for the disappointment,
And for my smile now bent,
Please forgive me,
And don't leave
702 · Dec 2013
This Sorrowful Existence.
Scott Shaffer Dec 2013
My health is declining.
It falls to my heart beat's timing.
Let me die,
It isn't like anyone would cry
547 · Dec 2013
Final Destination
Scott Shaffer Dec 2013
I wish I died at birth,
So I wouldn't feel the sorrow that has been handed to me on this earth.
Death spits at my face,
Now I just want to find my final resting place
500 · Nov 2013
Fate
Scott Shaffer Nov 2013
I miss you,
All I want to do is kiss you,
But now it's to late,
For being alone is my fate
466 · Jul 2015
Lost
Scott Shaffer Jul 2015
Life is ******.
Everything is ******.
**** this life.
I'm only here for her, even if all I ever do is cause her strife.
**** all of it,
I'm tired of this ****.

Does she even need me?
Should I leave her be?
After all, I'm sure she's sick of me
I want her to be free.
Not chained,
And for me to be the one to blame.

I don't know,
Whether I should stay or go,
It's all too confusing,
This constant feeling of losing.
Don't worry. I won't commit to such tragic acts. I just needed a way to vent my frustration, thus creating this poem.
452 · Dec 2013
Loved
Scott Shaffer Dec 2013
I loved her.
I loved.
Loved.
Love.
Such a fickle word, the word "love".
One moment it is the most beautiful thing we hear then at the next it is heart crushing.
And that crushing feeling sends us rushing.
Rushing to the bed to cry.
Maybe even making us hope to die.
But I digress.
And slowly start to feel less.
441 · Dec 2013
Abuse.
Scott Shaffer Dec 2013
A child pale with fright,
And a slowly fading light,
A room bleak and swarmed with black.
A mother who's care for her child slowly starts to lack.
The demons start to show.
As the parents fight starts to go,
The child whispers, "No more, please'
But only to see the father stabbed the mother with the now crimson keys.
Witness to it all,
The child tries his hardest not to bawl,
But he does so in vain,
He watches his mother beaten with fist and blame,
The child sees the wounds bleed.
To his father, he tries to plead,
The child's eye, now impaled
He now has a "trophy" to show how he had failed.
Now he sees nothing right,
But sees all that is left.
Seeing the scars that show on his mom,
Scars that are mental, don't show on the boy now so calm.
I have been fortunate enough not to witness my parents get into fights or see my dad abuse my mom, but just because I never witnessed it doesn't mean that I am not aware of it. I am against it, and will never wish to be one of those people who abuse their spouses.
409 · Jan 2015
Fair Queen
Scott Shaffer Jan 2015
Your beauty astonishes me.
You're the sweetest and prettiest thing I've ever seen.
Astonished at your love and affection,
I call you the personification of perfection.
A being of dreams,
Woven by them, but invisible are your seams.
Because you're title of perfection.
I can't sleep because of the beauty you show.
That smile you flaunt and taunt,
Haunts me when I can dream.
Set my soul free, my fair queen.
386 · Jul 2015
Writer's Block
Scott Shaffer Jul 2015
I don't know what to write.
I start to write what seems to be something great,
But, in the end, doesn't seem right.
The late nights I spend,
Trying to figure out what words to write down,
My brain forsakes my pen.
I now find myself distracted by an odd sound.
My brain is here and there,
It can't concentrate,
For it wants to go everywhere.
Maybe it's because it's late?
That has to be why I am unable to concentrate,
It must be.
I should sleep.
Goodnight.
385 · Dec 2013
Trying
Scott Shaffer Dec 2013
Seeing red,
Feeling so blue.
My heart rate spikes then falls.
I wish I could understand how you feel,
But you never tell me.
I look for all the signs that you give,
But never catching any.
Why can't I understand.
I'll drive straight off the edge before I ever understand you.
I'm taking my life by not living it at all,
And I do so by trying to figure you out.
My darling,
Why most you tease me,
You pull the leash and make me follow along,
But I never can.
369 · Dec 2013
Sorrow
Scott Shaffer Dec 2013
A heart which love has torn,
And sorrow that has been sworn,
No one cares to mourn,
Why am I so forlorn?
362 · Nov 2013
Low
Scott Shaffer Nov 2013
Low
Boredom and sadness intertwine,
Sorrow shows on my face,
They ask if I'm okay, I say I'm fine,
If only they knew the bitterness I taste.
The years fly by me,
Death slowly nears itself,
At least he won't leave me,
Maybe I won't be all by myself.
Who do I fool,
A life of misery and loneliness is all I know,
Why is this life so cruel,
And why does it make me feel so low.
316 · Nov 2013
Broken
Scott Shaffer Nov 2013
Does a broken body still feel?
Or does it stop from the pain that is much too real,
Did it quit on me as I quit on life,
And wished to pierce myself with a knife,
Because it failed you?
Or did something else fail, too?
Heart broke,
Oxygen choked,
Bones so fragile,
Left with a body that isn't so agile,
Why did it quit,
Why did it?
Is it because she is gone?
Is that what's really wrong?
Because she went away,
Because I was too cowardly to ask her to stay
293 · Jul 2015
Tuck Me In
Scott Shaffer Jul 2015
Tuck me in,
Into a place where I feel safer in than now.
Tuck me in,
Into a place where, in front of me, people will bow.
Tuck me in,
Into a place where your apologies mean something,
Tuck me in,
Into a place where it will take me away from everything.
Tuck me in,
Into a place where my happiness will last
278 · Dec 2013
Tears
Scott Shaffer Dec 2013
I lie down on the verge of crying, having the tears lie upon my eyes.
Not wishing to leave knowing the fate that would soon follow.
Knowing that once they leave my face they will be forgotten and dead
252 · Jan 2014
What I Had
Scott Shaffer Jan 2014
Unlike the rest,
I am depressed.
The reason why I am so sad,
Is because I lost what I once had.
But I should be glad,
Because I lover her and she loved me even when I was sad
212 · Apr 2015
Old Friend
Scott Shaffer Apr 2015
Ah! Hello to you!
How do you do?
Been far too long!
Seeing you makes me so joyful, I feel like breaking out into song.
A joyful muse you have been to me,
You always did bring me much glee.
It was tragic when we parted ways,
Even when I asked you to stay.
When you left it brought me much pain.
At least you are here again!
Here with me!
Here to bring me glee!
210 · Nov 2013
Someone
Scott Shaffer Nov 2013
I needed you the most,
But you treated me like a ghost,
Why are you not the person I once knew,
And how come I am now dead to you?
191 · Mar 2016
Untitled
Scott Shaffer Mar 2016
I'm cold, she told me
I said that's okay, I'm warm
That's how it began
We never pictured the end
Due to us being young and dumb
We believed we would live and be together forever
Such foolish things to believe
Nothing is forever
Not even forever
Forever fades
And becomes less and less familiar
A passing face
A face which turned everyone bitter
191 · Nov 2013
Hope
Scott Shaffer Nov 2013
My hope is lost,
And happiness is a far cry away,
So I wait for my final day,
As my soul slowly begins to frost

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