Does the silence choke you?
A reminder's vibration.

Just notes and beats
Rhythm and sphynx.

Missing and murdered
Missing or murdered
Thick off the tongue
Like tainted rivers.

Dubstep dreaming
So calm a feeling.

In clean cut lines
Organized chaos
I am not ahead or behind
I walk aside you
Melt alongside you
As your love penetrates
My carefully guarded fortress
Embracing me you disengage
My escape plans
I am learning
To accept all the exceptions
Not get lost in the misdirection
Loving all of me, you smile
I am home now
In this sweet embrace

fading, slipping away
you
missing, craving still only you
smiling secretly to myself,
with the one you love
the memories
still sweet like ice cream
the amber glow on the ceiling
still fresh in my mind
your lips damp like the air that day
still tickle down my spine
rushing my exisitence,
and in the depths of my soul
days now go by
Head still above water
I sit here and wonder why i am
stuck hopelessly in this wave
i am entwined
the way your limbs wrapped around mine
empty bags, once packed stare me down
the smell of the sea fades away with time
take away this melancholy,
Make it easy to breathe
holding on and letting go simulataneously
Hoping to land on soft ground
carving new paths
Your presence still with me
In glimpses of deja vus
THis city so full of people
But remains empty of you

You rock my very being
and leave for tomorrow.
Yesterday I thought I knew
today would end.
But all now is a oneness
a squeezed lemon
yellow ripe and juicy
tangy on the tongue.

You drown your own bravery
Before it has a chance to rise
You lie sad and restless
Unable to close your eyes
Your voice waivers, trying to trick me
You lie in slurs, unable to disguise
You are a fiction of my hopeful imagination
And were never really there at all
Now you find yourself as you have before
Standing in fizzy solitude
Dreams of better days lie crumpled on the floor
You are an amber shadow
I don't love you anymore

Just like that, stolen from me
Time, the elusive criminal
The glimmer in your emerald eyes
Stood still that day
Once brimming with tear filled pride
My heart is now ripped into 2 pieces
Yet cushioned by the memories
Of the way you loved me
And it swells with the way
That I still love you
Our Sunday songs crash into me
Fill my yearning soul
And oh we would dance
My feet upon yours
Your stories of the big beautiful world
It was hard to believe there was anything more beautiful than the world you built for me
With your weathered, strong hands
Hardened by ambition
But not soft like your heart
The missing is deep now.
Material reminders may be out of sight
But you my sweet father, will never be out of mind

It's on loop
That fresh new feeling
Reinvent ourselves over and over
We stare into each other at last
Diffusing the intensity of the electric icebergs in your eyes
I slyly gaze towards my shoes
My face is conquered by a widespread grin
Bluffing act defeated
Reunited over this golden cider
If the bottom of this glass can give me courage to speak,
I won't be your part one or two
Make me your entire act
I won't be your plan B
Make me your alphabet
It feels pretty right, as you say, into my ear
And it will loop
The initial kiss, the taste of your lips
Sprinkled with cigarettes and loneliness
The deep trembling in my hands
as they trace the sharp line of your jaw
The awakening within my quickened heart
Common sense surrendered in a last minute defeat
And it will loop
The deep pleasure, then the shallow breaths
Feigned words and obligatory conversation
Let's not admit the truth now
Gravitas does not belong amongst these pillows