Close the gate behind me and open it in the morning when you wake up for breakfast, throw in a couple slabs of left over bread and watch me crawl to retrieve what you don't want, let me out and prop yourself on my back as i obey every command you spit at my feet. It's always been this way and I have little faith it will change. This dominion you have over me . Mother. You cage me up and put a nozzle on my lips . You attach strings to my limbs and maneuver me to your liking. But I'll take it I'll take it all and than some, for I am not weak. I'll take your belittling and your controlling and your anger and your pain. I'll lay it all in my shoulders and carry all the weight as if it where a part of me. I'll take it all mother and than some. I'll let you cage me up. But I won't let you break me. For these layers of bricks I've build around me is nothing compared to your cage your four walls and a roof my safe house is nothing compared to the blue sky's you paint around our little life. I've protected myself I've strengthened myself I've build this fortress around my self like calcium coating the bones that you made within me.

Things that nobody talks about:
The desperation of loving someone who doesn't love you
How the sun feels warmer when you've spent a year being cold
The feeling of weightlessness after crying yourself to sleep
When he stares long and hard at you and smiles softly, making your eyes feel shy even when you are not
How people who used to exist in your orbit still take chunks off of your surface, even when you've taken so many hits you hardly exist.

Things that nobody talks about:
Even when you've moved on, even when you've found someone who loves you more, even when you've discovered better things, your skin remembers things best forgotten.

I never understood why people compared
kisses to fireworks
until i knew what it was like
to want someone so much
that all you could feel inside you
were explosions.