I found a shiny stone
Along the sparkling sea
It looked so all alone
So i couldn't let it be

As i look upon its grace
Among the other stones
It looks so out of place
So with me i brought it home

Everyone i know
Thought it couldn't be
This stone i had to show
Mesmerized majestically

But soon it became dull
The glimmer was no more
The sparkle in its soul
No longer touched my core

What was i to do
I knew it had true beauty
But with me it became blue
Then i felt i had a duty

Along that glimmering beach
Upon the other stones
It had a certain reach
Here its not alone

So i cast to the sea
It was the hardest to let go
But now that stone is free
For the world to see its glow

To have you in my dreams..
devoid of just a touch..
is but a nightmare..
a barren land..
my destitute.

If you could remove yourself from the universe. You'd likely see one mass, one body, what I like to consider god. I think about this often. You can do the same with you or I. Looking at one another, we see single bodies. A lil closer and you see atoms and many other individual processes that are interconnected making up what we are. Aren't we likened to these atoms, but it's we that make up the universe? Connected within the same body? Like hair on the arms of creation, individually feeling the breeze of life passing thru us! Each of us on a separate path of probability,  possibly reunited in the end to share these many individual experiences as one? Like the omnipotence and omnipresence of what some consider to be God?  This is my wish of heaven, of an afterlife; to continually play in the perpetuation. It can be a humbling thought, to think that we are indeed one, but seperated momentarily. Our entire lifetime is just a synapse in the mind of eternity.

If I could
I'd fashion words
That'd pierce your soul.

I've fallen so far in thought. I've contemplated ideas and theories of meaning and purpose in this life. Only to find myself in the darkness of reality. Sadness now overwhelms me knowing that nothing really matters. The magic and wonder is gone and I fear it isn't coming back.

The times I miss you the most,
Immensely.
I rid myself quickly by remembering how you made me feel,
Intensely.
Despite my will for you and I,
You often made my heart run dry.
I've gone from darkness,
To light.
Desperate,
To flight.

It's funny the mess we make when in love our hearts collide, we hardly think ahead or of the time to say goodby. It is the moment that we're in,  and fulfilling our desires, love rarely keeps its bond in times of forging in lifes fire. The work it really takes to mend, and bend, and fortify, it is greater than most wills and that's when love will thrive or die, and sadly here I am once again upon some ashes, but I will not repeat the same as precious time elapses. I've finally learned the truth after reliving all these lessons, that's investing in myself and fortifying my own essence. So here's to me, myself, and I, and may this future bring, all my efforts, dreams, and passions, unto life so joyfully.

Love is but a game I've never played..
But through you,
I've learned all the ***** rules..
Game on..

I use to plead with fate. Begging and wishing; praying and hoping for things to change. I'd always try to compromise. Almost always blind to one thing. Action. Always neglecting my basic necessities, in exchange for inaction; possibilities, for idleness.. Always focused on the moment. Lacking foresight for progression. All of my life I have simply digressed.

God I get so busy sometimes
Sometimes busy doing nothing
Sometimes just sitting here
Doing literally nothing
Almost feeling cursed
Day in day out
Like I'm chained
I feel little control
I feel my body breaking
A new chronic pain
Another migraine
Another depressive state
Some how though
I need to fit work
Also food and rest
Oh my friends
I've not forgotten
My family
they see me
much less.
I'm sorry