every waking morning
the lit room that I sleep in
I ponder on her existence
I know she's in a better place
I know theres someone else
who is this about
obsessed with love
you can't run away from it
its something we witness everyday
there's no ignoring it
ongoing battle inside ourselves
we're all conflicted
slaves to the desires
chasing stars that seem impossible to reach
diving deep into oceans that seem to have no end
with the same mind and the same heart from before
everything left unchanged
I can't move on from this
I still love you

Its the scent to her skin
Shes the one who drives you wild
The girl that just can't be peeled from you
Spiritual connections I jump in to her mind from mine
So much that I can see her when I close my eyes
Expressions of pleasure it seems
This is no winning game  
I failed before I could make a move
Now I stand here and watch you bleed
I had nothing to offer
But I wonder how much you got
How much can you make out of nothing
Because nothing is all that I gave you
Yet you took it
It was a mistake, everything becoming what it is
I took it so far
To you it wasn't enough
Putting sweat and blood for you
In the end it all had to go
Truth is you never let me know
That you've already been carried away by the flow
Everything that happens in the moment is okay to you
But nothing is okay it wasn't right yet you did it
Why did you do it

She hates my guts
Oh how she hates
Its how much I love her though
And my soul implodes at her very being
Came in to my life like some lost child
I offered her everything I had to offer
By helping her I was helping myself
I lost who I was
I've become what I am
I'm nothing lesser than a man
Every human bleeds
This isn't a movie
Invincibility only lasts in art
So our love never died
Because it lives on in my words
The poor words of a broken poet

Why do I keep taking chances with you
But it's not just you, it's everyone
Even friends will turn their backs on you
Missing them wont get them back
I hate how I'm trying to force something
When I knew it was always nothing
I still think of you every day and I don't know why
Why do I keep thinking about you
You are the one thing in my mind that never goes away
Why can't I stop thinking about you
Every day goes by
Every night that goes unturned by remembering your face
I think about all the things I could've said and all the things I should've said
Who knows.. Maybe it's not too late
But I'm done taking chances so I don't expect any change
A mist clouds the present
A fog covers my future
I'm just hoping to see your face on the other side

Its the peace in you I find beautiful
A lonely soul blessed on a journey
Keep walking your path to exile
We ought to find one another eventually
Thoughts never stop to pour out
Not even drips because its a broken water main leaking back in to an ocean of countless careless things
Contamination never seemed to pass through your filters
As pure as the warmth coming from your fingers
Don't turn back or look the other way
To all the problems you should've avoided
Whats here is yours to claim
Everything you've done has summed up the value of the name you hold
If thats really your name
Who are you really and whats the act you're playing
Own up to your name to feel whole again
Let go, to regain new strength to combat the evils on your crooked path
Its all on one line that never ends
You may seem to be on a loop
Its all inside of you, the things that intoxicate you
Everything remains continuous

one stroke of your brush
to put your mark
those rosy lips
compliments make you blush
kiss me softly
to **** me slowly
tonight its just you and me
tomorrow i'll be dead
like I never existed
strike my name off your list
you're more in love with your game
than you could ever love another

Quit fleeing from your mistakes
It wont help your heartache
I know what you're feeling
I've been on that road before
Your problems persist
Do they ever end
No, I don't think so
Your eyes tell the tale
Depression easily read
Haunted by your decisions
Is this really what you want
She chose the party scene
Now shes stuck in between
Her future is not so bright
Will she make the transition
She doesn't believe in God
I hope she finds the light
Before the darkness destroys her life