Fond of the sips of black death
In love with the smoke that doesn't go away
How long will it take
For me to lose focus
Lose memory of everything
It all holds me back and I keep taking in the wrong things
Look at all these drugs
They said it would get me through the day
Thats all it is
Its just something temporary
I'm moving towards permanent
Last me forever love me forever
How hard is that
Its impossible
But nothing ever pays off with out hard work
Nothing plays the way you want it to
It was never in the books for you anyways
But tonight I promise you we can rewrite history
I got death in my fingers and acid in my pen
Ready to destroy it all
Ready to scratch out the pain

I know you're not mine
But in my poetry you've always been with me
I wanna take you high
Grab you by the hand
Give you the ring that'll change your life
I've seen your past and I still want you
For the woman you've become
I'll be the man you can hold on to
Baby don't let go
All my actions will mean nothing
Everything I poured into you
I just want to stop your suffering
But I can see that you just want to be left alone
You'd rather depend on yourself and do things on your own
But I'm not tryin' to help
You were a rose still on the bush and I was too late to pick you
Now I am forced to watch you die
Nothing I can do about it now
Its karma falling down from your black cloud

I'm happy for you but I'm sad for me
We don't see eye to eye
Thats why you're always the first to leave
Thoughts of suicide I no longer feel alive
I'm frozen over with your absence
I need to find my own warmth
The memories of the times we spent together doused in gasoline
I try lighting it but the sparks aren't enough
My hearts like a freezer and my soul is locked inside
Screaming out in pain from the burns of the frost
Slowly spreading within my chest
She'll bury a seed deep in your heart and when it grows you won't even know what to do with the new life thats waiting to be exposed
You want to **** it but it's so beautiful

Your ambitions seem to fall
Underneath a messy sheet
I tried to avoid it but it was too much
Hit straight on I couldn't feel a thing
The pain that arrived
Left so quickly
I've said this before
I'm done with the games
When ever you're ready just call my name

Backed up now
Can't run away
Theres a trapdoor at the end
That sends you back to the start
I'm not waiting till its over to realize my mistakes
Theres nothing here to fix
Every missing piece found and replaced
I told myself I'd never feel this again
But look at me I'm back at the same place but with a different person

My body feels numb
You make it hard to breathe
I hold my breath so I can listen to your body
I hear it crying out my name
With every gentle motion
The passion in my soul burns higher
The flames glow brighter
Don't quit
Keep feeding the fire

We are forced to change
To adapt to the things around us
Our environment never stays the same
So don't be surprised when the people around you switch up on you
**** happens so fast but I don't give a ****
Lost control of my deepest emotions
But that was back then
Now I have them in a choke hold
I am like a blank CD with many scratches
Try to play me and you'll get nothing but static
My thoughts flow and my mouth stutters
The sight of you makes my butterflies flutter
The loss of you though
I still feel the shivers