Sadly so this is what you wish:
    Try your best
    your hardest
    So as not
    to be sefish
   To be helpful
   And contructive
All the while helpless
Enabling the self destructive

A light in the dark
A flame from a spark
In the most hopeless place
Even there is Your grace
Even when I was dead
You kept me fed
My sin had me captive
But You were still active
In changing my heart
It was always You from the start
You make me better
You wrote me a letter
Of instruction and love
Sent from above
Despite my thoughts of the day
You're the one that remains the same
Despite the desires within me
You remain my reality
I am so grateful for You
Make my heart brand new
Now within my soul is a fire
Burning brighter and brighter
Forgive me for my inconsistency
And help me be a better me

When the walls are closing
The ceiling, crushing
Finding a way out feels impossible
When the pressure gets intense
What do you do to find relief?
Where do you go?
How do you cope?

Empty threats  
Fill up pages
Seems I come to see
Angry ink of
Thoughtlessness