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 Aug 2014 REDACTED
Eva Nein
My heart is beating wildly out of my chest
My hands are shaking
I cannot think straight
My worries are screaming at me

What if I'm not actually that smart
I've been told all my life
That I'm clever

But without it
What am I

Without being smart
My wit is just sarcasm
And thinly veiled bitterness

Without intelligence
How can I live up to the expectations
Of the world

What if instead of being smart
I am simply average
And told I was better than I am

I could have simply gotten by all these years

The panic welling up
Threatens to consume me

What if I am crazy
Instead of eccentric
The only difference between them is being useful

What if alone I will be destroyed
By my very own mind

What if I am smart
What then
What is intelligence without being able to teach
Or show off on occasion

What if being alone with myself
Ruins my quick wit
And renders me useless
Helpless
What can I do

I need a buffer from the world
Without one I am lost
Just a single star in the sky

I need someone to explain
What is right and wrong
What is going on with these strangers

I need someone to help me
I need places I can escape to

But here and now
I am stuck by myself
And trying to react to this enormous change
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SG Holter
Sometimes. Brought on by
The thought of dying while
Watching
TV.
 Aug 2014 REDACTED
CE Thompson
each string is a dimension
and he's traversing them
fourth, fifth, ninth;
symphonies of light and color
with mathematical precision
that astronauts would envy
but he didn't sign up for space travel
and to touch the earth again would be like
being born a prodigy of mud and sky
you can see it on his face, flashing,
like the shooting stars his fingers so desperately pattern out
across the red wood, the color of home
so from dust he must try to create
a galaxy, when no man is a god
essentially, what i gathered from Beethoven's Ninth Symphony
 Aug 2014 REDACTED
Stacie Lynn
Pink roses stained with the red of my blood lye on the ground in front of me and I wonder how you took something so beautiful and used it so selfishly to destroy and bludgeon me until my flesh was tattooed with purples blacks and blues and I continue to beat myself up for not seeing it coming because I knew your soft gentle smile hid ulterior motives so I force myself to pluck every beautiful intricate petal from the rose seeping with blood until I have forgotten how badly you've hurt me
 Aug 2014 REDACTED
Gülçin
I just
have the feeling to
throw up
because
my thoughts
are rushing through
different feelings
and
I just can't explain!
 Aug 2014 REDACTED
Jonny Angel
I made
a huge deposit
into her
dream bank
& as my interest grew,
she drew nearer
to me,
saw my account
get larger
& loved me
even more.
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