When people hear the word, depressed,
They visualize sullen teenagers dressed in black with slits on their wrists.
But, many fail to recognize,
That depression is not always a physical manifestation.
That most suffer in suffocating silence.
Depression is drowning in an ocean poisoned with your own thoughts.
Depression is the guarded prison of your mind with no means of escape.
Depression is the absence of love, the absence of light, and the absence of hope.
It envelops your mind with a blanket of darkness.
It taints your soul with unbearable numbness.
It reminds you every waking second that you are not good enough.
You’re worthless
You’re alone
YOU ARE NOTHING
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When people heard the word depressed,
They visualize attention seekers
But many fail to recognize depression does not stem from desire to be pitied.
That most want to create an illusion of happiness.
Depression is plastering a smile on your face everyday
And releasing a torrent of tears,
Cascading uncontrollably into your pillow every night.
Depression is saying,
“I’m just tired”,
or
“I’m fine”
When someone asks if you’re okay.
But inside,
You are screaming desperately for help.
Yet you remain silent.
Because you are stronger than that.
Because you’re ashamed of yourself.
Because you think nobody would even care.
You are scared they will tell you
“You’re just looking for attention”
"That’s just life"
“Just be happy”
“You’re so ungrateful”
But, depression isn’t about seeking attention.
It is about waking up, pretending you are okay, and going back to sleep.
It is about isolating yourself from the world.
Closing the door, drawing the blinds, and crawling under the covers in a desperate attempt to shut them out.
Depression is when the greatest accomplishment of the day is mustering the strength to get out of the bed that cradles you in its safe cocoon.
That every morning you wake up, disappointment that you still exist.
Because life doesn’t seem worth living anymore.
Depression is chronic fatigue
Depression is the lack of motivation
Depression is complete and utter despair
Depression is regarded as a lack of personal strength
Depression is considered to be a weakness.
But depression is a real illness
And those who live in its suffocating grasp are the strongest of all.