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2.4k · Feb 2016
Paranoia
Rae Lauren Feb 2016
In this country I fear for my life
Violence today is far from your everyday fight
This just doesn't feel right
To sit here and not write
What has happened to my little Bahama land ?

Today people rob and **** for fun
Toddlers aren't afraid to wave a gun
Im sick to my stomach as I look in disbelief
Could being killed be my new destiny
What has happened to my little Bahama land ?

Innocent people caught in crossfire
All from stupid incidents that had been transpired
130 murders! Rings in my ears
Young children around me shedding tears
What has happened to my little Bahama land ?

Sun , sand and sea?
Means nothing
if innocently killed mothers cant enjoy it with me
I am the youth and I will be the change
I'll do it hand by hand
I beg plead and ask
What has happened to my little ol Bahama land ?
~ Rae Lauren
382 · Jul 2015
Stay a while
Rae Lauren Jul 2015
Stay a while

Baby  why you playing with  my head
You aint like them other guys who just wanna get in bed

Because …

You wanna get to know me
You  appreciated my style
There are no ulterior motives
I hope you stay a while

Those  other guys don’t  wanna get to know me and whats really on my mind
They only wanna know  the color of my thighs
We whisper all night and talk all day
About what you love , I love
they all most seem the same
We both looking for that Will and Jada love
Not  that Monica and Bill love
Its  so refreshing
Its so unique
Your not like them other guys

Because

You wanna get to know me
You  appreciated my style
There are no ulterior motives
I really  hope you stay a while
364 · Feb 2016
Untitled
Rae Lauren Feb 2016
You weren’t  here when I escaped this abyss
What she promised you  isn’t quite like this
Now shes a strike out , a hit and miss
you’ll probably end up  running  back to me , begging for a kiss
I’ll just turn you down with a polite diss
Regretfully reminiscing about my soft lips
You return because you can’t  resist the sway of my hips
I don’t think you get the gist
Its over
I quit …
343 · Feb 2016
Breathe
Rae Lauren Feb 2016
Tragedy and danger seem to go hand and hand for me
If its not your downpour of criticism Its my life falling apart before my very eyes
It's always something new
I cant seem to catch my breath
As strong as I may seem
The weaker I am
The more oblivious I may appear
The more aware I actually am
All the preconceived notions spread about me constantly overwhelm me
Its always something new
I cant seem to catch my breath
I feel boxed in
One way in no way out
Im being pressured it assimilate to the norm of society
The stress is eating me alive
Its always something new
I just cant seem to catch my breath
~ Rae Lauren
313 · Feb 2016
Motivation
Rae Lauren Feb 2016
Whats the point in fighting if you know you've already lost the battle ?
Whats the point of trying when you know you won't succeed?
Whats the point in loving if you always end up heartbroken?
Whats the point of living when you already feel dead inside?

The point is that there is a person out there whose worth fighting for .
A person whose worth failing for.
Someone whose worth the heartbreak
Theres somebody meant for you thats worth living for
And we will never meet this special person
If we keep looking for the point in things
Instead of taking each day at a time
To just live
~ Raelauren
300 · Jul 2015
Should I ?
Rae Lauren Jul 2015
Why does she keep doing this to herself?
Shes falling for a guy who only cares about himself
His only motive is to please whats in his pants
While this heart broken girl is giving him a chance
Giving him a peak at what he could have
She's insecure and is going out on a limb
Asking God

"Should I trust him ?"
296 · May 2016
Memories
Rae Lauren May 2016
I remember when it was just you and me
Our late nights our early mornings
Were they all in vain ?
We could talk to each other about anything, anytime
Now it seems like you can’t find the time ,for me
At first we swore that is was love
Or maybe we mistook it for something  else
Is it a sin to say that I miss you ?
Yes,
Because  now you're never here
I guess that was the old you  

I wonder if you know that the grass is never greener on the other side ?
I guess no one informed you because you still left
You had the best
But you traded in all our memories and moments
For someone who doesn’t love you
For simple immaturity
For the fear of being the center of everyone’s gossip
For being Afraid of being with a bomb *** girl like me
I guess its just you and her now

I cant but all the blame on you
I had my moment where I didn’t appreciate you and all that you did
But it never out weighed the things you did  
And the way you reacted

But I forgive you , its  okay

We’re going our separate ways
Now we’re entering onto a path to find love from another
And all we have left is the memories of each other.
294 · Feb 2016
Anxiety
Rae Lauren Feb 2016
The walls start closing in
My heart is pumping
Tears are rolling
My chest is heavy
I can’t breathe

Why am I fronting?
This aint nothing new
I get these feelings every time I talk to you
And I don’t know why I keep coming back
I guess I’m using you to compensate for something I lack
I’m trying to find happiness in you
But you just end up stabbing me in the back
I just can’t keep away
Your smile is sinister
Your beautiful face, a silent killer
Your voice intoxicating
And you catch me when I’m drunk with love
And all up in my feelings
And I don’t realize how fatal you are

Until …

The walls start closing in
My heart starts pumping fast
tears start rolling
My chest gets heavy
And I  just can’t breathe
~ Rae lauren
260 · Jul 2015
Curious
Rae Lauren Jul 2015
Tell me, what is like to be loved?

Love is crying until you can't cry anymore?

Love is screaming at the walls until you are only a whisper?

I'm curious

Was I lied to?

Growing up you would

Submerge me in these love stories with fairy tale endings

I've learnt that

Those stories are examples of relationships that have a one and a million chance in coming true

Their just distractions from the real pain inside

So...

Show me, what its like  to be loved.

Love is driving a knife into your flesh?

Love is being humiliated by those say they love you?

Love is being ignored?

Love is drinking till dawn where you sorrows are forgotten?

I'm so Curious

I need to know.

Why weren't we prepared as little girls?

Why weren't we taught that Prince charming can actually break our hearts?

Why weren't we told that sometimes he never comes to deliver

True loves kiss?

Why weren't we told that ...?

I'm just curious
246 · Feb 2016
Unrequited Love
Rae Lauren Feb 2016
My  heart jumps when I cross your path
Do you know that I love you the way I hate math?
Its funny how you don’t  get my jokes
Its probably cuz I always choke
You walk away when I just  want you to stay
Seeing you makes my whole entire day
Your body is like fine wine.
You got more incising  with age
But then you went and flipped the page
Rumors that you’re with her and not me
Crushed and destroyed my sanity
Spinning in a spiral of hate
So hurt I remember the date
When the grave was my fate
OD on some really heavy drugs
All because I never got that one  hug
I loved you but you never  felt the same
No wonder they say love is a dangerous game
170 · Jan 2018
Distance
Rae Lauren Jan 2018
The clouds tend to move faster the more that  I stare
Time slows down making this pain harder  to bear  
The more I move closer the less  you seem to care

Loving you closely hurts
From behind ain’t my style
So I love you from a distance
I’m trying my best  to make you happy
but you just become more distant

I break my boundaries in search of your satisfaction
But You only see me
When it’s time  for action
When it’s time for love
When it’s time for fun
When it’s time for commitment
I realize I’m not the only one

I guess I’ll be here when you choose to visit
I guess I’ll be here when you start to miss it
I guess I’ll be here when we plan to meet
I only wish that our lonely road was a two way street

— The End —