It's an acid
Bitter, mordacious, caustic
A hot and writhing serpent in my gut

It's jealousy

She's gorgeous
funny
charming
extroverted
I don't really care about that
Except I wonder if you do.

because you know what else she's got?

She's got your inside jokes
your banter 
your smile
your laugh
your glances across the room

Does she have you?

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Do you remember our inside jokes?
our banter?
our looks?
I dream of your smile. 
do you remember mine?

Can you talk with her? 
You are one of the few who can argue (successfully) with me.
I can recall your thoughtful look.
You always understood me.
Does she, you?

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I shouldn't be jealous.
You were never truly mine. 
You never so much as tried to hold my hand. 
much less kiss me,  
or more.

But, knowingly or not, you hold a piece of my heart.

I think there might be 
a hole in your pocket, 
because my heart is slipping.

It feels trembling and small and
-worst of all-
helpless

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Do you know?
Do you realize?
What you do to me?

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*Does she have you?

As we left
Its how I felt
No expectations
No disappointment

154 days
We waited
No expectations
Wasn't an option

From the Dream Lands,near and yet so far away,
From the Rivers of Slumber and their misty spray,
From the lullabies of the Night to which we sway,
Wakes you up,softly,a Glorious Day...

To Rise and Rejoice
To lift up your voice
And give praise to the Lord with a great noise

Forget the past that was grey,
Wipe the worries that on your forehead lay,
Let the tender light on your tears play,
and all the fears in your heart,let it allay...

So Rise and Rejoice
Sing with a glad voice
Give praise to the Lord with a great noise

Let the smile on those dear lips stay,
And no more weeping,I pray.
For,each new morning brings a breeze of Hope alway,
And beautiful Life ever shows a new way...

Now Rise and Rejoice
Let the Heavens hear your voice
To conquer or succumb is your choice

A traveler once came to me to tell me where he'd been
But every word that left his tongue would land upon my skin
Internalizing what I did had not left any space
And so the pressure climbing on just settled on my face
Expressions changing all too fast I started losing ground
Collecting only ***** air that morphed into a sound
And when I opened up my mouth it made its way inside
A deafening cacophony was crashing like a tide
The flood I felt was something like a temporary rest
Accumulated over time I couldn't seem to test
And then I knew, I understood the purpose driven fall
The plan my shaking hands had drawn was bowing to the call