Electricity
All through me
I can see
How this will end
Rules were made to bend
And messages made to send

In the aviary you can see for miles
Miles and miles, how I love that smile
The sweetest thing is you by my side
And the last thing I want is for us to slide
In the heavy snow and the cold rain
But just as pleasure goes then comes the pain

Can't do nothing about it, babe
It's as necessary as a summer shave
The path is never smooth, but we try (we try)
No matter what, no one is able to hide (can't hide)
I wish I held the key and I think I'm close (I'm close)
You and I, I think we're the most (the most)

You and I, I know we're the most

Entitlement
I
The side effect
Me
Down fall
My
Of us all

I
Can never tell
My
Personal hell
Me
And you in this room
I
Think it might as well be our tomb

I'm
Stuck in this cycle
My
Heart beats out of my chest
Me
And my and I never know what's best
I
Can't tell you the truth
My
Mind doesn't know the difference

With my ear to the ground
It's time to soak in the sound
Of your voice from the top of that hill
You've never sounded more shrill
But things are constantly shifting
And nothing ever stays the same for long

So just hear me out now
Soak in my sounds
Try to block out the rest
You're being put to the test
Never felt so blessed

I had a dream about you
On a night that I thought would never end
I walked over to talk to you
Don't take it the wrong way if I just wanna be friends
After all that's happened over the years
I can't take anymore tears

I know you like to do your own thing
And I need my independence
It just never seems we are ready at the same time
Never heard of interdependence
The classic way of doing things
Was never for me and clearly isn't for you
So lets just be true and cool
But were both fools

She told me
To come over
And on her
Never saw her
Like that before
Changed before my
Eyes sinking high
Looking for the sky
All I saw
Was darkness fading
In and out
As I went
Forth and back
Near had a
******* heart attack
When the door
Opened a little more
But it was
Only her dog

Empty
Dark
Full of regrets
Full of imperfections and mistakes
Shame
Shame at being who I am
Full but empty
Empty yet dark
Void of all my emotions
The black hole that ***** them in then spits them out at the most inconvenient time
Void empty unforgiving black hole
I'm enchanted by you
I hate you, but can't ever forget you
You're my drug and I'm hooked on you
Addicted to you
You've never gone away no matter how hard I've tried
I'm not sure if I want you to
Cause happiness seems so fake like plastic or people
Happiness feels great, but it feels so fake compared to you
You're real
I know you
You make hating myself feel good, you make it feel right
But it's not right and I know it
But I love the way you do it
How you make self hate and loneliness feel so addicting, so good
How you make the constant mental pain and heart ache  feel blissful
How you keep me wanting more
And how when I get a lick of happiness you make you miss you more
You keep me wanting, waiting, and begging for more
And I want it to end
And I can't make it
Your hold on me is tighter than welded iron and there's no heat to unconnect it
Only cold
There's a lock on my heart and you've put it there...
so that I would never let go or stop being an addict
But it's not like I don't have the skeleton key
to unlock
          *and let be...

When freedom dawns
Each day anew
Its essence revered
By so few
~~~~~~~~~
Silence echos
Early dawn
As nature
Captivates the morn
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
The sound of chirping
Birds that sing
Awaken us
To the sound of spring
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
New buds shoot
Through toiled ground
Bringing forth the hope
Of joy  to be found
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Embracing each new day
We live
Encouraging all
To remember to give
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
For just to take
And not to care
Would leave our hearts
And soles stripped bare
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Darkened past times
Now long gone
Shackles broken
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(  When Freedom Dawns  )

How many times did I  not learn
From a lesson taught before

How many mistakes repeated
100 times or more

How many chances
Did I ignore  - to forgive ?
Then make amends

How many people
Have I  led to believe
To trust in me their friend ?

No value held in spoken words
Unless we act them out

Reassurance only found within
The heart that holds no doubt

A smile is just a gesture ?
A hug is just a squeeze.?

Manners don't mean nothing
Just words  - Thank you  and please ?

It's true these things are simple
But like a tender loving touch

Without them
Then we realise
They all meant.    ....... so very much........

after my first true betrayal
I found myself mumbling
                                              snitches get stitches
shredding the dignity of my conscience
I left a paper trail of trust
   -a reminder for those to come
sprinkled the strands over my scars
and let them settle into the backdrop of my pain
I learn from my mistakes
(even kept the hilt as a memento)

but Tre...
                Tre is different