Your kiss was pure euphoria--
all I've ever wanted.

You were all I've ever needed.

Bliss, I found in the fullness of your lips.

Hope, I found in the creases of your bed sheets.

Love, I found in your touch.

Or so I thought.

But last night I was slapped in the face with the harsh realization that you'll never be mine.

It's tearing itself through my soul
and out of my chest--
It's rotting me from the inside out,
*and that's not a very big deal to you.

"Because I'm still in love with you on this harvest moon."
-Neil Young

"But the truth is, you were never there
you won't ever be.
Sometimes I think I'm not either, so what do I do when everyday
still seems to start and end with you?
And you won't ever know, you won't ever see
How much your ghost since then has been defining me."
-La Dispute: You and I in Unison

"Don't tell me that I'll be fine. I'm so sick of hoping you're right."
-Neck Deep: What Did You Expect?

"Get off my mind, give back my heart, and get the **** away from me."
-Front Porch Step: Drown

"You were the only saving grace I ever had."
-Slaves: Starving for FRIENDS

Your body slowly fading away
Watching time slip by
Wrinkles and sorrow
Staining each line on your face
Its hell to watch
Everything you've once known and love
Get devoured in the sands of time
Every penny you earn
Get sold for a dollar
While your heads under the blanket
Afraid to peek out from underneath
Scared to witness life once again
I just wish I could live in my imagination
Where Rainbow Unicorns dance on pots of gold
Leprechauns smoke bowls of the best ****
Santa just throwing parties
Zombies break dancing
Maybe I'm just living in a high
But **** reality is hell to watch

Like a kiss upon my cheek
Infusing a tender glow
Graciously revealing which we seek
Harboring the world of
T**ommorrow

I am torn between
Running to your door
And telling you I love you
Face to face
Or
Crawling in my bed
And whispering I love you
From far away

**(I wonder which one you would hear better)

The way your laughter tasted on my lips,
Left me wanting more than I assumed you could give.
Kissing you was sort of electric, it only made me wonder how
Your finger tips would feel pressed against my raised skin.
I look up at the sky to see your face arranged in stars
That I had never noticed shine before I had met you.
Our time seems to be limited although I expect nothing but
an infinite amount of memories

Proud of the day
        with my dump of stuff
              facing fearlessly
Letting all
         of my things be seen
               answering
All of the questions
         truthfully nothing
                held back
all things remembering
         all the way
                through.
Like this.
      
proud of a day
      standing naked.