age 1
i cried
we all cried

age 2
i crawled
i cried
we all cried

age 3
i read
i crawled
i cried
we all cried

age 4
i drew
i read
i waddled
i cried
we all cried

age 5
i talked
i drew
i read
i walked
i laughed
i went to school
i cried
we all cried

age 6
i went to kindergarted
i shouted
i talked
i drew
i read
i walked
i laughed
i cried
we all cried

age 7
i played videogames
i made friends
i went to school
i shouted
i talked
i drew
i read
i ran
i walked
i ate
i laughed
i cried
we all cried

age 8
i went outside
i played sports
i watched movies
i played videogames
i made friends
i went to school
i shouted
i talked
i drew
i read
i ran
i walked
i ate
i laughed
i cried
we all cried

age 12
i cried
we all cried

age 13
im still crying
but you never did
none of you
ever cared

every time I passed you in the hallways
and we lock eyes together
my pupils will grow bigger ten times more
but your pupils will stay the same
now when I bump into you
my pupils will dilate a bit
but your pupils will stay the same
before I was blinded with delusion
and now I finally snapped back into reality
I found out who you really are
so, when we met again
my pupils will shrink ten times more
but your pupils will stay the same

Do you remember the first time we met?
you probably haven’t but that’s alright
before we were strangers
we didn’t know anything about each other
and yet we lived in two separate worlds
It’s only when we started to have quick glances at each other when we crossed paths
is when our worlds collided into one big universe
first it was quick glances
then holding eye contact for a while
to then small talk that’ll last for a few minutes
and then finally we started walking the same direction and talking about anything that can keep us entertained for one another
but now we started to grow distant
and I really don’t know why
we used to be on the same path
but now we’re forced to take different directions
we still take quick glances at each other still
but I feel as our universe is starting to separate over time
and the only thing left now
is a nebula
and a supernova

elixir in a bottle
so that i can remodel
all the holes in my brain
elixir in a needle
so that i may wheedle
my brain
into working
again

scratch on the wall
scream in the halls
this is an asylum
revile him
beguile him
let me out
please

the crazy men
they came again
but this night
it was different
the crazy men
they came again
but tonight
i wasn't free

my favorite hoodie
the biggest one
hide my body
and the pain all gone