He told me we'd go on a date,
(I felt his hands around my waist)
The park, coffee, just don't be late.
(and cringed away with foul distaste)

I wondered why I cried like this,
I want to love, to feel okay,
What was wrong, what was amiss?
But something made me shy away.

He made me smile and laugh and scream.
His lips said "I love you so much,"
We kissed, we hugged, we were a team.
I felt it too, but feared his touch.

Daddy issues really ****.
I lie, I cheat, just not to ****.