To know my own
Thoughts, hopes, wants
To dream myself not caught
Pretending away the one
That would not, will never
Has already come, now over us
Yet here I am
Caught Where She Left
Stuck with my own
Thoughts, hopes, wants
Struggling in full circles
This slavishly special level
Of my own self contained hell
While alone I watch her
In mechanical fantasies of my
Thoughts, hopes, wants
Caught and not capable
Of moving forwards, on,
Getting over all I've lost
Making my peace with those
Thoughts, hopes, wants...
Caught when ever she haunts me
Where she left off.