sometimes i feel nothing
like im not even there
that's a lie
it's all the time

it's the feeling of being numb
the feeling of feeling nothing

it's like your life is a silent film
that you see play before you
but hearing nothing and
everything is black and white

there is no color in the world
no happy songs that lift your spirits
no mug of tea can seem to warm your soul
and no smile seems quite so real

i am a shell of who i once was
feeling no humanity and no life
longing for something real
something to be felt