I love so hard That I burnt holes through my lungs I burned with such emotion That I set my heart on fire There was so much energy That I shook with such violence I steamed with such intensity I left my body without any liquidity blood I began to realize that I burned with the intensity of the Sun and at night I could never set myself out An ever burning thought One prevalent of love and kindness Forever warm to the touch I felt so much I could always feel the coolness around Everything around me wanting to take my warmth We could never share the heat I created all that I could and they always wanted to be like me I loved so much I felt the world clutch at my burning flesh and tear each piece of me to build their own fire I keep building my eternal fire I felt so much and kindled my feelings beyond repair That past love and compassion Is the numbness that comes with the cold A fire so hot, that to the touch is made of ice My heart of embers burned so brightly That even tonight it blinds me As the ashes and dust suffocate my mind My flames will always rise
I honestly don't know what is going through my mind these days, and it's so hard to keep going when I can't understand what people are thinking and can't understand myself. Things that did help me seem to be only making me worse.