scream about it if you need to
how you were bleeding on the ground because you were too drunk to stand
and nobody at the party even noticed
or looked up
or you can say it nonchalantly like usual
"i'm really not significant, it kinda suffocates me sometimes,
i'm dumb" you'll spit the words out
and you're forcing a laugh
paint the words on the wall with the blood
from your sloppy wrists
tell them about the day when you were in school
in gym class, shaking because everyone was looking at you
and you knew in the locker room
that they saw the scars that trailed from your hips to your knees
tell them about how you called him and blurted out
that you couldn't get over him
that you missed him uncontrollably and that
was never gonna change
and he said "maybe one day if things change.."
spill your guts,
write about how you haven't had a lover since just in case he chose to come back
you could even paint a picture
of the look on your face when your mother told you
"you're the most ****** up person i can think of,
where did i go wrong?"
write about your drinking habits and the way you
start to feel like you're digging your own grave if you
stay sober for too long
tell us you're not okay
i mean we know,
but tell us anyway