you were always equivalent to the sun on my shoulders but now you feel like the autumn air in between my fingers. i never let myself feel how to let go and now i feel my fingers winding around your wrist and i can tell you want to leave but i cant lose another piece of me. your eyes always felt like home but now someone turned the porch light off and ive never felt so unwelcome before. i dont know how to ask you to stay especially when i know you want to leave and my soul is sinking but i cant even bring my legs to kick to the surface anymore.