As I saw you smile
I broke with sweet paradox
Not just of its beauty
But the reason is not me

For months I have wondered
Who you are to me
Merely a friend? Maybe
Or something else I deny

Was it the familiar feel
Or was it the chemistry?
Everyone ties us together
But you cut the rope

You shut me out
I affirm with a smile
Concealing the cuts deep inside
I wallow in internal sadness

I can never be her
I can never replace
I face the truth I am no match
Even a chance is a blur

Sometimes the dark thoughts come
With sabotage, you can split
But will I be the same?
No because you won't

As much as I love having you
It will never compare
To see that sweet smile
Even if I am not the cause