What is the evolutionary benefit of loneliness? How does a Darwinian thinker rationalize the disconnect between intro- and extroversion? Our world is generated by our need to feel as though we are together.
Not alone. Not solitary. Not separate. Not disparate. Still alive. Still here. Still breathing. Still seeking the heartbeat as it thrums through our souls and echoes across a pillow into the eyes of a dispassionate and apathetic lover.
“maybe love is just muscle memory a body next to a body you just react how you learned it the first time.” An empty bed full of two people waiting to believe, maybe love is just that. An empty bed next to an open window as curtains flutter and we plummet past the 23rd floor together.
Hand in hand we fall through the surface and become a tuxedo with tears and bells standing in front of strangers without faces reciting lines from ancient vows written without words in the air that floats between us.
And it goes Dearly beloved. Barely beloved. Barely here. Why do we pretend? sorry
And it goes, Dearly beloved, We have gathered as a people around the need to find another with which to fall tumbling through a woven tapestry of inaccuracies, ineptitude, an incision to free us from our search.
And it goes, I, the seeker, take you, my apathetic, beautiful witness-- to have security in knowing I am now tied to another. Not unique, but made to hold until our until our bodies run out of time and our sense of humanity waves to wither to dust to nothing to death to dust.
And it stops--we transcend ourselves into melting wax and darkness while stars poke holes in our blanket of lies when we lay for our final sleep. We rarely go together, and when there’s time, we search again.
Borrows a bit from Carrie Rudzinski and Daniel Beatty