In 4 months my brother will be 18
and in 7 months i will be 17
and i still feel like a 5 year old
in an adult world

i still dont know how to spell
and i still get nervous when asking the cashier for ketchup
Yet im expected to know
what to do with my life

I think i do
but i still want to be a princess astronaut who lives in barbie mansion
and maybe its childish
maybe im still a child

how am i to know
when im grown up enough to be one person
because right now i feel like a little girl playing dress up
and my shoes are too big for me