Is it wrong that I wish somebody would take time our of their day to notice me? Is it wrong that I wish someone would CARE that I exist? Is it wrong that I want to be loved by someone who isn't related to me and is a boy? Is it wrong that I am so selfish that all I think about is receiving love from someone else?
I'm such a despicable human being because I want a boy to love or at least like me so badly and I don't appreciate those that DO love me already it's just that I really want love right now. Is it wrong to want that?
Is it wrong that I feel like every poem, story, letter, grocery list for God's sakes that I write feels unnoticed and uncared about and lost? Like a shout into silence with no one around to hear it? I feel like I write and no one reads I speak and no one listens I scream and everybody pretends not to hear I love AND NO BODY LOVES ME BACK It would just be so nice if someone sacrificed a little of their time to notice that I exist and that I have a voice but I really don't feel worthy of that and this pathetic self-pitying point I'm at is a low point for me I'd be too ashamed to say it out loud that I feel unloved that I am so selfish and self-pitying but I gotta write it to get it out of my system this lonely unwanted unnoticed feeling like I don't exist like no one cares what I have to say Is it wrong?