The cold crawled up my spine and settled onto my skin. "Winter is here" I remind myself as I sit on the sidewalk with my cigarette in hand. A new season, A new beginning. The tobacco begins to do it's work as my mind begins to fog a little bit. I inhale, and exhale again, but instead of the smoke, It's the cool winter breeze that I let flow into my lungs. I look at my cigarette one more time and flick off the ashes. Let the ashes remind me that the dead stay dead. It is a new season, A new beginning. So let me not focus on the old, But instead build upon the new.
I write this as I'm laying down on my couch feeling sick to my stomach because of the cigarettes I smoke. I feel like throwing up and this isn't fun at all.