I’m sorry doesn’t even begin to cover
the list of apologies I have to make to you,
but that won’t stop me from trying

I’m sorry that I let you fall in love with me
opened my arms and welcomed you into Hell

I’m sorry I didn’t warn you
I am not an angel
I’m a time bomb in disguise
and the closer you came, the faster I ticked
until my world lit up in an array of technicolor fireworks
worthy of a Texas Bicentennial Independence Day celebration
with you as my Grand Finale

I’m sorry I’m a creature of habit,
because although I say enough
I really mean I need you more and,
Darling, that is not fair
Because you need space to become yourself again
and I need fresh air before I stitch up the pieces of my life
I desecrated just through being myself

Oh, yeah, and I’m sorry I’m myself
because myself is never going to be good enough
or pretty enough
or perfect enough
for you parents and
no matter how hard I try
they’ll always be wishing
that you had dated my best friend instead
and I’m not sure you can live with that
so I'll leave before I hurt you worse
and with my dignity still in tact

but I’m also sorry for saying goodbye
because all I can think about is how nice
it was to belong to someone
and now I can’t even look at you
without my heart exploding into fireworks
wishing we were still there
staring up at the stars and
promising each other eternity
saying that as long as the big dipper shown
we wouldn’t stop loving each other

I’m sorry I kept that promise
because even though I said goodbye
left the best thing that had ever happened to me
I. Still. Love. You.

So I’m sorry for all the unwanted pain
unnecessary heartbreak
unneeded audius

I’m sorry my love isn’t ever going to be good enough