i still remember when you asked me "where have you been all my life?" and in that moment i knew the word swam around my head it was beating against the inside of my skull like the screamo band playing on the stage of the ***** little bar where i accidentally mentally tied myself to you aquarius
i had never headbanged in my life and i will never again because i am nothing to you nothing but a summer fling nothing but a rebel cause i don't want to be your rebel cause i don't want to be the reason your mother can't sleep at night i will never be anything more than a war you chose to fight i woke up with my neck sore i should have known the first time i had a dream where you were choking me i clearly was too blind you see
when was the last time you had that feeling in your gut? i asked you why you always kept your pages shut but never thought to close mine
it's hard to feel anything but this hole that you left me and the thoughts that sting even when i don't think of you because everything reminds me its true i thought i was okay until i saw your cigarettes in my trash can i didn't feel insane until i found your shirt under my mess i hadn't cried for two whole hours picture that and nothing less i remembered when that bed was ours and that was the only place you'd confess
i wonder if things are the same for you i wonder if you can stand to hear the music you polluted my life with can you hear me screaming ****** behind the melody line? i can't even stand my own skin impossible your hands have been on it and my mouth you used to swear it was the only thing that existed
unfortunate that i am not nor will be the only one that fell into your flame and lost at your game