I tread on the tightrope Suspended between thinking too little And thinking too much
I balance precariously Tiptoeing towards optimism But humanity sways me And I shakily creep Towards despair
The costume chafes There is not enough chalk on my shoe The lights are too bright And a pearly bead of self-awareness Trickles past my temple And drips on the dirt baseness A thousand feet below
And yet--
The crowd smiles And gasps And cheers And claps And I am reminded That everything Is a show
So I smile And I bow With a flourish And I soak in the adoration
And try to forget That the struggle repeats Each night In each town