Oddly enough, my first conversation with God (I call, for lack of it's true name) came as I began dating a non-believer. I recognized the voice, so I carried along,
She's onto something. Think so? Know so. She's onto something all of you should know. How many of us do know? Not nearly enough. A great deal then, that I want nothing but all of her. And think.. what to want, when you lose her? I'd prefer not to ponder.
Our second came as any might expect. I took to the call,
Hey. Floating around still? How's the kids? Humor is a fine coping mechanism. Oh no, just the opposite. I didn't believe I'd need to know. I didn't want to. You know? I know.
The third came a year after,*
Is it too late to give my answer? When is it ever too late for answers? Never and always. After it all, I really just don't know. But I want to, and the world as my partner I will try to. I don't think knowing is the point, you know? I know. And it's splendid that you think so. Now tell me, what is it you want for yourself? You know, I don't know. I thought so.
And right before the silence returned (as it always does), I could've swore I heard a whisper...
He's onto something.
Why it's okay to say you don't know. And why it's never okay to settle in that ignorance.