She's a wounded surgeon.
She's not entirely broken,
There's something lodged
deep inside a dark crevice
of one of her ventricles.
She just needs a little work.

I heard another surgeon opened her up and lost a finger in there.
No one will help her now.

So she has to do it herself.
She thinks if she's numb enough
she'll be able to dig in there and rip it out.

But she'll go too far and
put herself completely under
and all she can do is lie there, catatonic.

A few times she's managed to stay awake,
but she's left bleeding, fumbling with a scalpel.

Deep down she knows
she's going to have to do this one wide awake.
And it's going to ******* hurt.  

But she needs to know if anyone cares enough about her.
Enough for her to even think she's worth her own effort.