I have ran away for so long
Always wondering if he would follow

When I was 12 I ran on the other side of the courtyard
Blushing because he knew I loved him
And crying because he'd laughed and brushed it away
He did not follow

When I was 15 I ran on the other side of the world
On another continent for a year
Because he was enjoying the destruction he caused in me
Complimenting me to tear me apart
Talking to me to ignore me better
Looking at me to make me feel special
And kissing another girl while staring into my eyes
So away I ran
And follow me he did not

When I was 18 I ran back into my house
Rushing to leave yours
Because after stealing my lips and my heart
You told me you had a girlfriend and wouldn't leave her
You betrayed her and made me a mistress for a day
I loved you and hoped you would turn around
But your back is the last memory I have of you
Like all the others you never followed me

When I was 19 I ran away on the beach
Pretended I needed a walk
Smoked a cigarette and drank too much
Because the girl in your arms you had just met
Had made of her lips your new home
You saw me leave and you
Waved me away

When I was 20 I
Stopped running away
I am standing right here
And if you decide one day
You are tired of being played with
Treated like a ***** secret
And thrown away when convenient for her
Please remember
I am standing right here
And I am not going anywhere