when the moon is high on the fringe of town, just beyond city lights and street signs, the empty glow of neon blinks against a backdrop of deep blue, (almost black but not quite), freckled with luminous stars. it’s the echo of a shepherd barking in the mountains, chained outside to a white picket fence, waiting for an answer that will never come. it’s the trickle of water in the koi pond next door, recycled in an artificial route, spewing bubbles and waiting for evaporation. it’s the creak of my rocking chair as I fold my knees to my chest and hug them, the way I did when I was five, sitting in darkness because the porch light burned out and I’m too tired to replace it. now the dog has stopped barking and a mosquito buzzes close to my ear, and in the distance, the absence of crickets makes silence the loudest sound I've ever heard.